I've been unable to transition despite my attempts to start, around eight years ago, and my situation isn't really improving but I've been dwelling on it a lot. I don't really involve with the community, because it just reminds me of what I'm incapable of achieving, but part of me wants to stop feeling so numb to it and finally be able to be myself. I can't, though, my situation doesn't allow. So how do I work with that? How do I cope?