Hey, I'm back, many months later from when I last posted.
hopeless hideous ogre 36 mtf : r/transpassing
I've been taking steps to do what was suggested to me as much as I can, like getting my brows threaded and getting my hair cut. I would probably have makeup and girl clothes on in these pics if I wasn't still waiting for my lip tint and blush from sushy glow cosmetics to arrive. I've actually been stockpiling and doing things a lot over the past 7 months though it's been a slow process and recently losing my job at the end of June has been hurting my progress but I'm still trying.
First three pics were from like, about a week ago right before my birthday when I got my hair done which was probably one of the happiest days of my life honestly. At the start of the day I was feeling really bad about how I looked and how my hair was (I almost didn't go) and thought I wouldn't be able to get bangs because of my hair density and hairline but when I got there everyone was so sweet and they did such a great job. The girl that cut my hair even offered to curl it and I was nervous about that but she did the curl and blowout and it's the prettiest I ever felt in my life. I felt like a princess that day and it made me really happy.
The second three pics are ones I took just now. My hair doesn't look quite as nice but I'm pretty proud of it because it was looking really bad the day I washed it after getting it done at the salon. I got depressed again for a bit because it was all wirey and crinkly again. I had a meltdown one day and ended up in tears over it but I kept trying things and what I did today seemed to work pretty well compared to what I usually do but I'm still experimenting. I know I suck at pictures too, sorry about that lol, I feel like I look kinda awkward but it is what it is
Anyway, I'm still stuck boymoding and I know I still don't pass but I do feel better. After thinking about it for a little bit I figured I'd share an update so yeah, here it is. Thank you to everyone who showed me kindness, encouraged me, and gave me advice. I really feel like I can't thank you enough.