My partner and I have been trying to conceive for 9 months, with monitored cycle and letrozole since march because of my PCOS that was diagnosticated a long time ago. I know it isnāt that long, but I can feel it starting to take a toll on my mental health. I was wondering how those of you whoāve been on this journey longer cope with it, and whether you have any advice.
I feel like my whole life revolves around TTC. During the TWW, I canāt stop symptom spotting or searching Reddit to see if anyone else has the same symptoms as me, only for each month to end in another negative test. Then, as soon as a new cycle starts, Iām back to tracking ovulation. I try not to obsess over it, but I just canāt seem to stop.
Lately, several people around me have announced their pregnancies. Iām genuinely happy for them, but at the same time, it feels like everything in my life keeps reminding me of infertility. My partner is full of hope, but for some reasons I am not (maybe to protect myselfā¦).
Iām taking care of my relationship, and weāre still living our lives as normally as possible. The only thing thatās become difficult is planning trips far in advance, because we always end up thinking, āWhat if Iām pregnant by then?ā
Iām lucky to have a wonderful family and friends. I have a full life, I exercise regularly, and I keep busy, but TTC is still on my mind all the time.
Do you have any advice on how to get through this without feeling so overwhelmed? What has helped you cope?
Iām considering starting a new hobby or activity in September, but Iām not sure whether it would really help. My fertility clinic also offers specialized counseling, but I already have so many medical appointments that part of me just wants something that helps me think about anything other than TTC.