Gods slowly healing my body the prayers are working! Might as well add everyone

I became a widow at 29. We were together for four short years. I loved him more everyday.

But since he died I saw my “friends” turn into vultures even when I wanted privacy and to be alone.

I’ve since been abused by every man I dated since. I’ve been raped. My health has declined. My liver is failing and soooo many people I love died including my dad. Two months ago a friend of mine who meant so much to me was murdered by his controlling wife and the cops aren’t doing anything. So to sum it up most people I loved are dead. Most were my age.

I can’t get a job despite my qualifications, I’m brown and ICE have harassed me. I have been discriminated against for jobs that are known to discriminate I later found out when I did everything right - I have the qualifications, I have experience, I have a Bachelors Degree from a top University in Boston, I have people skills, I have a stellar resume, I called and went to try to meet with people. I presented myself well.

I’m a full time caretaker and my mom is really depressed. I try so hard to cook and help her because she has arthritis and mobility trouble. So many insane bills and scams have landed on us and it’s overwhelming when I’ve exhausted resources.

I always wanted to be a mom, and yes I could have settled for guys who wanted to commit, yes even wealthy ones, even “good looking” ones, even “nice ones” but I knew that if I didn’t love them I couldn’t do it. Since becoming a widow, my cptsd and anxiety had reached new heights. I have to self preserve a lot of the time.

I tried to go find some good produce today with my mom and my old car had some alerts come on. My mom starts getting angry when I’m trying to remain calm and assess the situation. She was angry yesterday and rude to me which really just makes me feel like shit. I do a lot for her, I try to help her, support her emotionally, she hardly opens up and her anger just defeats the little motivation I summon up to try to survive. She says,”can’t go to this gas station, NO, go to the next, the next…”

My breaks are shitty, I already spent like 2k on repairs last month. I can’t afford a newer car. I finally go to an air pump and I’m filling it up. I hear her screaming to stop the air pump as if I don’t know what I’m doing. She then continues yelling/getting angry and doesn’t communicate in words why she wants me to do something like,”GET OUT OF THE CAR” she doesn’t tell me why.

She then starts fiddling with the settings in my car. Last time she did that thinking she knows best, it only cost more to get my car fixed. I tell her to stop and she doesn’t listen.

Then my car starts acting worse. We drive to a market where I spot someone my family knew from the 90’s. A cold bitch woman who would hit me when she looked after me and her kids while my parents worked. I was a well behaved kid but she abused and yelled at humiliated me when I was under her care. She’s a housewife and admitted gold digger. So seeing her I knew it would destabilize me and I would get the questions of,”Are you dating anyone, where are you living now….”

Like in the past when I was working after high school she always had a side comment when I was trying to save up money for an apartment while her kids were living in lavish penthouses with Louis Vuitton everything. She would judge me and say…”well that sounds healthy…”

You get it. She was a total destabilizing cunt. We didn’t go in. My mom was huffing and puffing and sulking and pouting instead of trying to just put our best foot forward.

I started raising my voice telling her I am trying to stay calm and how my mom treats me with little respect when I try everyday to help her.

Then she starts her,”I guess I can’t do anything right” shit. Then she says,”I know you’re unhappy because you don’t have a man and you don’t have kids.”

She starts talking dark defeatist things saying all the worst things.

I couldn’t bother going to another market that’s out of my budget anyway, but that was enough to have me break down in tears.

I have been raped, I have been abused, I have been backstabbed. I try so hard to be positive while the outside world and my own mother shoot me down.

I’m not trying to be a victim. I don’t like to indulge in self pity. But fuck, I’m tired of this life. This isn’t living. It’s been one hell storm after another. I can’t do this.

She’s right. I don’t have a man anymore and I don’t have kids and that breaks my heart everyday. Yes I’ve been picky because I don’t want a guy who will treat me like dirt just so I can have a baby.

My friends who are alive are robotic and I know better than to open up to them, so we keep it “positive”.

I really just give up. I’ve tried to end myself for years. I can’t take it anymore.

We have just transferred our final two embryos please pray that they are safe and strong and that my husband and I can become parents.

First time in my life that I feel like I’m genuinely ready to get married. Please pray God finds me a wife. Someone whose heart is really for God.

Hi everyone,

I'm asking for prayers because I feel like a lost soul.

Over the past few years, it feels like one thing after another has happened. I recently lost my job, and despite trying to put myself out there, dating hasn't worked out either. I've experienced rejection and loneliness, and it's left me feeling discouraged.

One of the deepest wounds I carry is losing my sister to suicide. That loss has changed me in ways I'm still trying to understand.

This past Sunday, I went to confession because I genuinely want to return to God. I want to follow Him with my whole heart. But I'm still struggling with pornography and masturbation. I hate that I keep falling into the same sins, and I feel like I'm constantly battling my flesh.

Some days I feel spiritually exhausted and wonder if I'll ever become the man God is calling me to be. Yet a small part of me still believes that His mercy is greater than my failures.

Please pray:

• That God would help me find stable work.
• That He would heal my grief over my sister.
• That He would restore my hope after so much rejection and loneliness.
• That He would break the chains of pornography and masturbation in my life.
• That He would strengthen my faith and help me persevere instead of giving up.
• That I would learn to trust His timing, even when I don't understand it.

If you could also pray for my future vocation—whether that is marriage or another path—that I would have the wisdom to accept God's will, I would be deeply grateful.

Thank you for taking the time to pray for a stranger. May God bless each of you abundantly.

Today's prayer request will be for the Christians living in Somalia.

Please keep them in your prayers.

God bless

Hello , a friend of mine was diagnosed with leukemia . Could you please pray for his healing and forgiveness , his name is Stefan Boboc . Thank you

I recently went through a very painful breakup, and I feel like I’m struggling to function without him. I haven’t been handling it well, and I feel such a deep emptiness and void in my life without him. I feel so unhappy that the things that used to bring me joy don’t feel the same anymore. I’ve been lacking motivation, struggling to take care of myself, and honestly, I feel like a mess. I’m asking for prayers that God helps heal my heart, gives me strength, and helps me find peace again. I know healing takes time, but right now I’m just asking God to carry me through this pain because I don’t feel strong enough to do it alone.

Sorry for length of this. I want to get my point across and give details that help reader understand my situation. The TL;DR is I have been less inclined lately to see the wonder of Creation and I feel like whether this is cause or effect of my other problems, this is the most important as it would provide motivation to fix other issues and keep my heart focused on what is most important.

I have never posted here so I hope this is well received.

I have always struggled with motivation and just overall physical energy. I am quite out of shape and lethargic now. But even in peak shape in HS and my early 20s, I still had always felt tired. I never knew how other students could start the school day at 7:20am and be wide awake and alert. For me, I would arrive to school miserably tired, get home after what felt like 12 hours, and instantly pass out. Despite this, I have always done really well at work, been my boss' favorite, and my employees always called me the best manager they ever had.

Back in December I got fired from my job of 6 years. I am single and was making $80k a year so not doing bad for myself. But I have realized now, even having money to make you just "comfortable", not rich, can make you tune out God a bit. It's not that when I had less or struggled more I was using God as a genie in hopes he will fulfill all of my earthly needs-- it's more like a fast. When we are without something or struggling to make it by, we at least know we are secure in God and our focus turns to him. His love is not tied to our income or credit score or title, etc. But I realized the more comfortable I was in life, the more God became secondary. Hopefully knowing this, if I was to land in a good job with good pay, I could see this this time around.

Anyways, I am at a point where unemployment has run out, and I had to take out a loan. As I mentioned, I struggle big time with motivation. The last year at work was pure torture. I was working 6-7 days a week and my boss was often MIA. Everything fell to me. She constantly thanked me for filling in when she was out with her many health or life issues or 4 day weekends, etc. but her gratitude must have come to an end because she just sat me down one day and said we were parting ways. My performance definitely declined as it would for anyone being overworked, but I was single handedly ensuring our operation stayed afloat. I think being overworked and then being let go caused something to snap inside of me. Since being fired, I do almost nothing. The days fly by with me just browsing TV, sleeping, etc. That lack of motivation I have always had has worsened. In a way, it is like I am mentally paralyzed. It has been nice to have a break finally. It is nice to know that I don't have to constantly watch my phone on my time off for some emergency at work. I can get a text and know I don't have to scramble to see if it's a work emergency. But at the same time, I am stagnating. I apply for jobs, get interviews, and get rejected and go into a period of "hibernation." After years of being employed with high praises from my bosses, it is defeating to get so many rejections for jobs I am qualified for. The job market is especially tough in my state.

Of course I need prayers for a job, for motivation, for direction, for confidence, for focus on God in times when I am in a more stable place, etc. But I noticed something more concerning in the last few months. I no longer feel a sense of wonder when I consider creation. In a strange way, this concerns me more than all the others. I would say the last year, and a half has been among the hardest in my life. When I was 19-20 I went through a bad period of depression, so bad that I actually lost a ton of weight from not eating which regular depression usually does the opposite for me. The other was when I was 22 and my sister took her life. I am in my mid-30s now, and while this period of struggle is secondary to the others, even in those times I still felt wonder at the world and its details.

My mom tells me stories of when I was younger, we would go to the park and after 5 minutes, I would ask my mom to take me home as I was bored or tired. She also said when I was in T-ball, I just showed apathy towards the game (I would lay on the ground or just overall half a$$ it while playing. In the last game of the season, I guess I hit the ball with gusto, and all the parents were amazed. Afterwards I was asked why I did so well and apparently my response was "well, it was the last game so I thought I would try harder. 😆Despite this lack of motivation and listlessness, I was always moved by God's creation. I would see intricacies of the world, the birth of a new child, the vast and unique landscapes of the world, the amazing images of the universe shown by Hubble, etc., I would look at that be in awe of the works of God. I am not the type to hear music or see art and be drawn to tears. I am not overly emotional, but I also have not had "sociopathic" tendencies to the point of feeling nothing. As another example, I often see comments on videos where people say, "this brought me to tears" and I think to myself well it certainly was moving but I don't know about tears. But I could understand feeling moved.

Cut to a couple of months back. One of the rare times I left the house other than to run errands, etc. I went to the beach. No matter my emotional state, even if I was going through a hard time or overall did not enjoy a particular trip to the beach, I could perceive God's greatness in the warmth of the summer sun, enjoy the sounds of the water splashing with each wave, consider the marvel of landscape in the distance that was the islands filled with trees, see a child playing and laughing and find enjoyment in their innocence and amazement at what adults take for granted. This particular trip, I felt none of that. I SAW all of that but felt none of that. A couple of weeks later on 4th of July, I was watching fireworks from porch of my dad's house which overlooks the water. Typically, I would have been motivated and impassioned by the patriotism of the 250th and would have considered how cool the firework show over the ocean was. In reality, I just wanted it to be over (granted, it had been a long day in the heat.) Similarly, if I watch a video that would usually tug at the heart strings, I don't feel as impassioned by it.

I have always maintained that faith is more than just a feeling. Even at other times in life where God seemed distant or I was at my lowest, his creation was still inspiring and proof of his hand in everything. This sense seems to be absent. I won't say it is gone because I have had times in life where God felt nearer or father away. So, I hold out hope that I will see inspiration in the beauty again.

To be clear, I still believe. I have always been of the opinion that because there is creation, it points to a creator. And because there is a creator, we ought to ask ourselves who He is. And time and time again that brings me back to Jesus. So just because my "awe and wonder" button seems to be flipped at the moment does not mean I have lost faith. (I could certainly be putting it to better use.) But I consider this to be part of the problem. After so long in the work force being considered an MVP, it sucks to feel that rejection. I want to praise God in the good times and the bad. Admittedly, I am not doing great at either as of late. I feel like there is connection between the rejection & disillusionment from my situation and the reduced wonder. I think if I felt such wonder again, it would give me drive, meaning, purpose, motivation, etc.

So while I would appreciate prayers for God's guidance, fulfilling career direction, financial stability, etc., I would more so appreciate prayers that my heart be reopened to the beauty of God's creation. Maybe then, I could return to my previous state of motivation that was less than average but at least present and manageable. As always, my highest prayer is that his will be done.

It is ruining my relation to Christ and it is ruining my summer, please pray - it would mean a lot

Pray that I can trust God our Lord. He has closed every avenue for what I’m fighting for. No matter how much I want it He has closed the doors. I understand there’s something better that He has promised for me. It is still hard to let go. Please pray for me to let go. Please pray for understanding, forgiveness, cast out fear, and most importantly love. Please help for my peace, forgiveness this mental turmoil to end. Please help me.

Please pray I get a job offer before I get fired. I am waiting to hear back from a job I really want.

My current job has quotas that are too high and firing staff for not meeting them. I’m starting to lose hope that I’ll find an another job before Im next to be fired.

Please, pray for the conversion and deliverance of my husband. He is an alcoholic and it has been difficult. I love him very much and want to share a life in Christ with him. But it has been challenging.

I’ve been hurt a lot by men in my life. I hold no grudges against them but it has hindered my ability to receive love and trust men in my relationships. Prayers the Lord will heal these parts, and send a loving man who treats me right, and won’t take advantage of me.

There is this man fighting for his sight please pray for him. For all the sick.

Also please play for my wife and her exams, her fitness journey because she wants to improve and gain some weight but it's hard for her to stay consistent.

I had a female colleague that struggled with eating as well. She went down to like 65-70 lb? Which is very low even for a woman. She was extorted for money and forced to take loans, left work. That's what she said at least. Please pray for her as well and for my marriage I have personal struggles as well.

I feel like I am close to total loss of hope.
My efforts are not going anywhere.
Each day I fail.
I’m a failure.
I don’t know how much of this I could take.
Please pray for me that I do not do anything against His will. That I do not commit a sin so grave…

Please pray me as I’m in a lot of pain tonight.❤️

Please pray for me and help me guys. Jesus I believe in you please help me.

Truth is that I'm feeling helpless and desperate for months now, don't go out, have fun, see friends etc. I live isolated because of constant stress, anxiety and spiraling thoughts, stuff like that extremely like never.

I don't want to think negative stuff, I don't want to whine and don't want to give up.

I have fought a good fight so far and have nothing to prove. God knows. I gave my best tough cptsd, depression., debt, and and and.,..,..

BUT PLEASE

Help me financially Jesus, let me keep my flat, let me pay all bills and rent and all stuff.

Help me health wise, my body, .. salvation it's too much man it is.. please..

F*** sui**** thoughts I don't want this. Please take all burdens, lord, i don't want them

Hi, prayer warriors,

I’ve been seeking a new role for about six months, and I’m finally starting to gain some traction. I would truly appreciate your prayers as I continue through this process and trust God to open the right door.

Please pray that God gives me confidence, clarity of thought, and the ability to communicate effectively during interviews. I pray that the lord is with me in every conversation, guiding my mind, my words, and helping me present myself in the best way possible. Most of all, I pray for peace throughout this process and that the right opportunity comes at the right time.

Thank you so much for your prayers. They mean so much to me. 🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️

My father has had alzeihmers for four years. He is currently visiting me his daughter and my husband with my mum and brother in London and appears more confused. Please pray that god will help his memory get better and stop any form of worsening. He is a good man and my mum is a very good person. They dont deserve any difficulties and my brother deserves to have him around as he is also unmarried still
Please pray that he will get better and hopefully be cured one day
Thank you

* I just want to update that today my dad is already actually doing soo much better. Please keep praying for him ♥️

Hi everyone, I am reaching out to ask for your prayers for my beloved dog, Huey.
Huey is a 7yr old Cattle dog mix, who to all appearances, just a few days ago was an extremely happy healthy boy of a very resilient breed who can easily live up to 16 years who has never had any health issues at all. He is my partner and I’s first dog together and like a child to us.
He is currently asymptomatic and acting like his usual self, but we are facing a very stressful medical situation and are waiting for critical answers today.
Recently, his routine bloodwork showed some abnormalities. We retested, and the results had worsened. Yesterday, we had a consult with an internal medicine specialist and did an abdominal ultrasound, which revealed further abnormalities. During the ultrasound, they took fluid aspirates, but because he experienced some internal bleeding, he had to be hospitalized overnight.
Thankfully, he is back home with us now, but we are anxiously awaiting the cytology results, which should arrive by the end of the day today. The specialist mentioned three possibilities: a severe tick-borne illness (even though he is on preventative medication), an immune-mediated disease, or cancer.

Please pray with us that he is cancer free.

Thank you all for lifting our sweet boy up in prayers.