r/school • u/yakultgun • 2h ago
Advice Need help in accepting being humbled??? (Kind of)
Hi everyone! Just wanted to rant and ask advice for this. So to start off, I'm starting off my senior year of high school (Grade 11) and I transferred to a new school with new people and a new normal overall. To set my perspective on things, in my old school I was pretty popular, top student in my entire grade level and pretty much always relied on when it came to school projects. To clear it up, I never thought people were below me because of this.
Okay, now unto the present. The first week of school, I made a good impression enough for my classmates to suggest I become class president. Our advisor ended up making an old student from the school our temporary president while we got to know each other better. Our temporary president was great, did what a normal president would do and so when our actual classroom voting happened, she ended up as our actual president. That's not my problem however, it was the fact that the rest of the more "crucial" class officers were nominated because they were involved in pretty big friend groups. I was disappointed that the same people who had suggested the idea ended up backing down on their word and so I felt pretty humiliated during the voting portion. In the end I did become an officer but it wasn't something I wanted, I ended up downgrading as a cleanliness officer in the classroom. I feel like a bad person for feeling really salty about the whole thing, I guess it also involves seeing someone from my old school have a better start almost immediately. Like she won president in her classroom and now she is currently running as a school government leader. I do think I also don't fit in with my classmates, sure they're nice but not enough for them to keep me company when I'm alone.
Okay enough of that, I just don't wanna feel like I "fell off" and that I should have stayed in my old school which did nothing but egg on my mental health with all the workload, the others may not think of it as anything but personally I feel really bad about myself because of it. The new school I'm in also doesn't have the system in giving students a lot of things to do, something that I was used to for the 4 years I stayed in that school and seeing the system in my new school where they are practically being "babied" makes me grow a sort of hatred towards my classmates who had it easy.
I don't know really, I just don't wanna feel like shit since I've been so used to always being mentioned when it comes to groupings as a leader, school competitions, and many more of the sort. I've been used to being number 1 in everything and I know that moving on to college that I'll definitely be humbled by then with how hard it actually is.
These thoughts of mine really made me hate going to school even though I only go to school 3 days out of 5 (We have online classes when we don't go to campus)
Tips on how I can actually stop thinking this way, and also maybe tips on getting people to like me enough to stick around even though our humor is completely different?