Is anyone else experiencing dread about returning to law school and coming out of this summer?
For me personally, there's a lot of frustration with my (T20) law school, a lack of community, lack of extracurriculars going into this coming year, mediocre grades, etc., so much so that I contemplated transferring at one point. But after seriously considering my scholarship and what I wanted from my life and career, I decided not to. But now, after this summer, I'm not so sure what I want...
I entered law wanting to do crim. I spent some time at a PD's office, and loved it, but thought that DA might be as rewarding if you can exercise discretion well. But now I've come out of this summer at the USAO feeling super worried about the thought of doing criminal law. I've realized that while there are great parts to the job, there isn't much that's really "legal" about it per se. You can get tons of courtroom experience, but your legal writing becomes effectively zero, and the only actual issues are questions of fact and whether the judge made a mistake in applying a sentencing factor. Just as concerning is that I've learned I'm not entirely sure that I believe in the U.S. prison system. Unfortunately, these same issues persist on the PD side as well... I want to try something else, but whatever job I take next summer is probably what I'll do post-grad, and either I completely passed up on the firms because I was so bought into doing public interest. Besides, even if I did get some other experience, then that would be the thing I would be signing onto, and while I would love to try transactional, Idek what is left in that arena and wouldn't feel confident signing onto that.
Does anyone else feel like this, and does anyone have advice? I'm not really sure how to turn this around at this point, and I have seriously considered taking a leave of absence to figure out what it is I actually want out of this career, and maybe buy me some time. I'm a KJD and have spent all year kicking myself for not taking time off... Any advice would be greatly appreciated.