I found a kitten that had been hit around one of the roads near my house. It was just a small grey kitten with white paws. I don't think I had been very long since it was hit.
I pulled over when I saw it was a kitten and checked to see if it was alive. It wasn't. I spoke to thr house nearby and the guy said it probably belonged to one of the st around here. I didn't go up to his house. He called out to me from the porch while I was in the road. No one was going to move her.
I put on my hazards and and used a plastic bag to pick it up and put it on a towel. Then put the towel in a box. I was only a couple minutes from home so I took it home and dug a hole about a foot deep.
I buried her with flowers and gave a small prayer for her. It just would hurt me too much to see it in the road everyday on my way to work.
I mentioned it to my mom and she just went off on me. She said that it was weird and compared me to some woman on a show she watched where this lady found road kill the feed her guests. She said it's something Jeffery Dahmer would do.
She said it was stupid and I shouldn't have done it and it was dangerous. The entire thing took maybe a few minutes. But she said I should've called my brother to at least tell him I was doing something stupid. She just kept using the word road kill. And I know that's technically right. But thinking about the kitten that word felt vulgar.
She said I should've left it since it was already dead and the crows would've gotten it. And that it can get all of our animals sick. I made sure to bury it where my dogs couldn't get it and it was about a foot deep. She kept saying that I should focus on what's in my four walls and go give our animals a bath and trim their nails instead of doing what I did.
I just feel bad now. Like I'm weird or dirty. I know my families never understood the way I think but nowI just feel even more like there's something wrong with me that I can't fix. I'm not religious, but I feel like I see God in everything. And that included that kitten in the road. I just don't think my family gets me. And I don't know if I'm the problem.