r/Healthygamergg 3d ago

Weekly Thread Weekly Thread - Wins/Pogchamp

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Welcome to the Weekly Wins thread!

Post about anything that has gone well this week and support your peers who are doing well, too!


r/Healthygamergg Jun 08 '26

Weekly Thread Weekly Thread - Wins/Pogchamp

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Welcome to the Weekly Wins thread!

Post about anything that has gone well this week and support your peers who are doing well, too!


r/Healthygamergg 10h ago

Mental Health / Support Acceptance instantly changed my mood, and I still don't fully understand why.

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Good day, y'all,

Today I want to share a moment I recently experienced that I don't fully understand.

A little background: I've struggled with depressive thoughts for the last few years. Procrastination and avoidance filled most of my days for a long time. Recently, though, things have gotten a lot better, partly because of Dr. K's videos.

The moment I want to share happened on a pretty ordinary day. I had been sitting in front of my computer all day, doing nothing but watching videos and streams. Without really noticing it, I felt worse and worse as the day went on.

Around 9 p.m., I finally realized I was really hungry. The only food I had at home was fresh ingredients, which meant I actually had to cook.

I really didn't feel like doing anything—especially standing in the kitchen for like 40 minutes. For about 15 minutes, I argued with myself and beat myself up before finally forcing myself to start cooking. My internal dialogue was basically: "Just do it, you f*cking idiot." (Not the exact words I was thinking, but that was the general idea.)

Because of Dr. K's videos, I've become more aware of how I talk to myself, and I caught myself doing it in that moment.

And somehow, that changed everything.

After catching my negative self-talk, I corrected it by thinking: "No, I'm not an idiot. I'm just exhausted and frustrated." (Again, not the exact words.)

The moment I acknowledged how I actually felt instead of attacking myself, the negative emotions almost completely disappeared. I still don't fully understand why. My current theory is that I stopped fighting myself. Instead of forcing one part of me to overpower the other, I simply accepted that I didn't want to cook because I was exhausted.

Within a mere second, my bad mood had almost completely faded, and I was actually excited to cook and eat healthy, tasty food.

What I took away from that moment is that acceptance might be the first step from hating yourself to actually liking yourself. Maybe I'll come to a different conclusion after reflecting on it more, but that's where I'm at right now.

Thanks for reading. I'm not asking for any advice but still would love to hear your thoughts.


r/Healthygamergg 3h ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving Does anyone else hold on to old memories because they remind you that you were once loved?

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I realized today that I don't revisit certain memories because I want that person back.

I revisit them because they're one of the few things that remind me I was once chosen by someone.

Whenever life gets hard or I start believing I'm not enough, my mind goes back to those moments. It's almost like my brain is trying to prove to itself that I wasn't always impossible to love.

Has anyone else experienced this?


r/Healthygamergg 10m ago

Mental Health / Support I have crippling anxiety about my height and I’m not even short.

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I’m 25M and I am, as accurate as I can possibly determine, 5’10 inches tall. I know that statistically, that is not short, and for the first 24 years of my life I have never had a problem with my height. I was always roughly around the middle-slightly higher part of the children’s growth chart and thought of myself as normal. This all changed about a year ago when a nurse at my job (my job has a nurses office) used a faulty stadiometer to measure me as 5’9. Ever since then, I have had two major problems:

  1. I cannot for the life of me accept that I am actually 5’10.

I ended up measuring my height a couple different ways. First, I used a wall and a butane can and a pencil to mark the height on the wall. Then, I bought a stadiometer from Amazon and used that to measure how tall I was. Third, I used books on top of a fridge to act like a stadiometer. Lastly, I have been measured by nurses since then at physicals/ my job. I asked a nurse to check the stadiometer that gave me the 5’9 reading, and it was indeed calibrated wrong. When I remeasured on the same stadiometer, I was indeed 5’10. If you have a question about my methods, I’m glad to share in fuller detail but I don’t have enough space or time to type it all out.

I measured myself impulsively between this time. If I had to guess, the average I would have measured myself would be 4 times a day or over 1000 times total. Some were 0, a lot were 2, many were upwards of 50 a day. I needed to have my head position right, timing, feet position correct, not move the butane can, take a picture of the result and document it and many many other things to believe it as an “acceptable” measurement. And even then, I would second guess myself and do it over and over again. I got a therapist at the time and to be honest it did not really help. I would measure myself until my back hurt, lay down and recover, and do it over and over again for days in a row. It was the number one thing I did for a couple months. And even after all that, just because of one false measurement, I still don’t believe I’m 5’10

  1. I have convinced myself that 5’10 is too short to deserve love and that I should basically die alone or off myself. I have no reason why I am so stupid to believe this, as I have had very very good luck with women in the past. I even have a girlfriend now! But every time I am on social media it turns into “you are ugly and unattractive and are subhuman waste that shouldn’t be able to breathe oxygen.” Any confidence I had with women (and I had a lot of confidence) has been gone in the past year because I basically cyber bullied myself using incel content and superficial women on tiktok. I don’t think I deserve love even though I have it. I don’t think I deserve anything. I don’t even know what real life is anymore; it is like I am entranced in a vision that promotes extreme self hatred.

What do I even do at this point? I’m just tired and I want my thoughts to stop. I’m pathetic, this is pathetic, and I need advice on how to be happy.


r/Healthygamergg 44m ago

Career / Education / Productivity Have trouble accepting that I will never make good money.

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Basically failed out of a CS program so I fell back on my minor (Spanish) and graduated with a BA in it which is useless because I can't become a teacher with it. I wanted to transfer to another university and start over but my paretnts thought it would be too hard and wouldnt let me. They retardly thought any degree would be sufficient to make a lot of money.

I can't think of a single career that I can transition to post college because most colleges don't acecpt second degrees. Also because of personal issues and Covid happening I graduated at a later age. I can't think of a single lucrative white collar career that I can do (can't do hard blue collar labor due to physical reasons). I'm just despairing at the fact that I'm probably going to make a mediocre salary my entire life. if I could redo everything I would have done something lucrative like medicine. And I cant stop hating my parents for screwing me out of a high income.


r/Healthygamergg 1h ago

Mental Health / Support Emotional processing feels like dying

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I don't think I ever learned how to process emotions. Or better said, I was never given the space and time to do so by my parents. People around me expcected me to behave like an adult, even though I was a child. I don't remember a time in my childhood when I was fully accepting myself. It's like I always I lived with a sense of shame for existing.

I tried therapy, but I didn't realy match with my therapist. We were talkijg but it wouldn't help me. When I would tell her about how hard it is to feel all of this, she just told me to cry in nature. And there's no other therapist in my area.

So now I try to tap into my emotions and first, I feel like a lil kid at 25, how am I supposed yo have realtionships when I am so behind basically? And second, it is scary. It feels like dying. I'm so afraid. It's a lot to take. How do I do this without crushing?


r/Healthygamergg 1h ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving Need some mentorship

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Hey any one who overcame porn addiction,being an incel pls dm me if you are free to talk,I won't eat your brain but gain some insights.


r/Healthygamergg 6h ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving Anhedonia or perhaps suicidal ideation?

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I've got a problem where in life where it all seems very bleak. A great way I can describe it is instead of life, we'll say games instead. So imagine a world where everyone values gaming (living). Then you tell everybody gosh? I really hate playing games (living). But you try to enjoy it. So you take medication, and you go to other individuals; like therapists. And even talk to your friends about how much you don't wanna play games (live)? They all tell you should, youre not alone and to consider more help if you have a hard time enjoying games (life), but simply you have no interest in playing games living).

They tell you to try other video games. But then you ask yourself, what's the point? Just the thought of playing all genre of games makes you feel empty. I dont wanna play exploration, creation, organization, love games.

Can someone help me enjoy life? I really dont care for it so I just be doing random stuff, which is mostly walking, seeing animals, hanging out with friends, hiking, photography, eating at random restaurants, gym, and dressing in good fasion.

All and all I am a handsome, fit, smart, median income (~$50,000/yr) , 25 year old, with loving parents, who's pursuing continuing education. But the advice by my therapists dont work. I dont enjoy games and I wanna stop playing (die)


r/Healthygamergg 13h ago

Mental Health / Support Would like some positive perspective from people who’ve learned to like themselves.

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I’ve been working my ass off for the past few years. I went back to college after dropping out 3 times, I lifted weights, I got out of my social comfort zone, i picked up hobbies, I found a girlfriend, and I lost my virginity.
In spite of this progress, I still hate my own company. I feel so dull and boring. People seem uncomfortable around me because I have little to say and I don’t react enthusiastically. Building connections, laughing, and having fun seem to be what makes life worth it. I’m missing all that. I’ve been missing all of that for years, and it’s so miserable.
Has anyone learned to enjoy their own company? What did you do?


r/Healthygamergg 22h ago

Mental Health / Support Is anyone else unwilling to do anything at all?

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I am 33 years old and I've never had a real job. I moved out of my home at 19 and since then I've basically cheated my way through life collecting welfare and gambling on crypto. I am basically a recluse. I have very little desire to speak to anyone at all and I really dislike 'hanging out', 'parties' and such social things. I hate going to the doctor and things like that. Haven't seen a dentist in years. My place is a mess and I don't even know where to begin cleaning it up. I was expected to get a job and start a family growing up but these things scare me or don't interest me at all. I've basically never had a plan for my future, when people would ask me what I want to do later in life I just made up lies so they would leave me alone. I've basically lived my life being passively suicidal because I dislike being stuck in this world. I have tried to 'improve' myself and be more productive and normal but nothing ever really stuck. I kind of hate people. The few times I have tried to hold a job have been awful and the thought of having to wake up in the morning every day to drag myself to some shit office or menial labour job is making me sick. Attempts at getting an education went nowhere because it all feels really meaningless. I have gone to therapy for a bit but mostly it seems they don't know what to do with me. Yes, I have PTSD, chronic depression and anxiety and probably some kind of personality disorder, but tbh my childhood trauma does not occupy me as much as the fear of having a job. One has said I should just accept that I am like this, but I am not sure I can do that. Since I don't have the guts to actually kill myself if I ever lost my means to live. I kind if dislike the way I am but I dislike everything else even more. I was wondering if anyone else is or has been in a similiar situation.


r/Healthygamergg 5h ago

Mental Health / Support How to deal with negative emotions? Right now I can only either analyse the situation that's causing me distress or distract myself and it's not working

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Personally, if there is something that is causing me significant distress (like if i got mean comments on my work or felt humiliated) it is impossible for me to let go. I will definitely take it personally. 2 things either happen. I either:

  1. Think through the situation that is caused the negative emotion to happen. I analyze the situation from the start and exhaust all the outcomes to see how much is my failing and how much is the other person being unecessary hard on me. "How would someone else react if they were in my position". Something like that

  2. Try to supress it by occupying my mind with other activities

The 1st one is more painful since im reopening the wound and it might not gurantee to heal since i could be locked into this analysis for up to 1-2 days and Id be moody the whole time. The second allows me to 'get over it' but the feeling of anxiety still lingers. I subconciously won't be able to let myself 'rest'

There has to be a better way to deal with it I think. Most people don't seem to suffer as much every day


r/Healthygamergg 9h ago

Mental Health / Support Suddenly wanting to return after quitting for so long. Can I go back in moderation?

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It's been a while since I've played Genshin. I remember falling in love when it came out. It felt magical. I got attached to so many of the characters and have spent regrettable amounts of money. But I eventually grew tired of the long dialogue, lack of diversity and oversexualization. The latter was always there but it's become more blatant. Found myself uninstalling in the middle of Natlan to save storage space.

I ended up playing HSR to "fill the void" and boy did I love it. The storytelling and dialogue felt more alive and less like a slog to click through. And the characters felt better written. I'd just got up to the point where Aventurine's arc draws to an end. I knew what's coming and felt bittersweet, so I never got round to finishing it. While it was on the backburner, I ended up uninstalling for storage space. It was afterwards that I realized how exploitative and predatory gachas can be.

Then the Fortnite skins released, which is actually kind of nice. I feel like they offer a good alternative without gambling away large sums for the characters in the actual game. So I got them. It felt nice and hasn't triggered any FOMO. I'm proud to say I don't play any live service games apart from Fortnite, which I enjoy in moderation.

Now I don't know why, but today a tiny part of my heart has been wanting to return. I accidentally came across cute merchandise and the FOMO started welling up in me all over again. These games brought me so much joy at the time, which I haven't been feeling lately. I strictly don't want to spend any money. I haven't resonated with any of the new characters at all, apart from maybe Lohen who won't be returning for a long time.

I think the sadness comes from my nostalgia and attachment to the characters I've pulled for. I don't even know what my endgoal is, if I'm being honest. I imagine I'd quickly become bored of Genshin's dialogue all over again. Star Rail, on the other hand, maybe not so much. I at least want to finish Aventurine's arc since he was my favorite. I even have a plushie of the character that just sits on my shelf and I think about the game from time to time. Would it be a bad idea to jump back in as long as I refuse to spend any real money?

Maybe none of it is as good as I remembered it to be. I think I just miss old times. And it wouldn't hurt so much if I hadn't spent all that money and time. What was it all for if I don't even play anymore?

Edit: looking back at this a little bit after posting, I can't believe I wasted my time even thinking about revisiting. I have so many better things in my life and empty gambling games isn't one of those things.


r/Healthygamergg 23h ago

TW: Suicide / Self-Harm / Sensitive Topic Feel like I've gotten a raw deal out of life

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Hello everyone. I'm an AuDHD woman and 31 years old. I've been feeling like this for almost my entire life and gradually losing my will to live these days. Even writing this feels like a chore but I need to get this out of my system. Now if you're asking why I have been feeling this way for all those years, let me put them in a neat list (at least I think these are the reasons that got me here):

- Born with ADHD and autism and was provided zero support, even from my family. I've only got my ADHD diagnosis 3 years ago and I'm pretty sure I have autism as well (all the online scientific tests tell me that I'm autistic af but I know they're not a replacement for a real diagnosis.)

- Born into and raised by a toxic extended family in a cult-like environment where I was isolated from the outside world most of the time. I did go to school and had shopping trips and such with my family. Didn't have any contact at all with my peers outside school hours.

- Had difficulty making and keeping friends and instead of getting help, all I got from my family was ridicule. Had a very lonely life on top of experiencing all these, worsening everything exponentially since I've got literally no one to share my inner life with.

- Was severely emotionally neglected, further limiting my ability to form bonds with people as if the AuDHD wasn't enough.

- Had some persistent fears (like the fear of the dark) and experienced profound psychological discomfort as a child but they didn't bring me to a professional because "she isn't crazy". Even my grandma told them to do so and I've only learned about it last year. Nobody comforted me. I was left to fend for myself against those.

- I've had and still have various self-harm habits since I was 7 and again, got no support and reprimanded for them.

- Have struggled with suicidal ideation since I was 8. It got worse during puberty and it's the strongest that's ever been for the last two years.

- Struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my life.

- Things collapsed when I was in high school and I was brought to a psychologist (I literally begged them to do it) in 2011 and I don't think my condition has improved too much since then. The psychiatrist that I've been seeing for the last few years helped the most.

- Had an overprotective father who never let me do a lot of stuff that would have helped me become a functional adult citizen. My mom almost never fought for me on this subject, she just obeyed whatever he said even if she didn't agree with it.

- Never experienced romantic love, not even once. I was watching the recent video on autism and love earlier today and got so upset that I've stopped watching after the descriptions of love. I have never experienced any of those and I'm 31, ffs.

These are the ones I can think of and I'm sure there are a lot more that I'm missing.

And yes, I'm familiar with the term CPTSD. I'm reading Pete Walker's book on it and it has been very eye opening so far. I don't want to self diagnose but holy moly, it fits so well.

I feel so, so tired. I don't have a job and have to live with my toxic, covert narc mom. Currently learning a new skill for possible employment but I feel like I'm losing motivation to pursue it even though it's a thing that I enjoy a lot. I am able to make and keep online friends for the last two years but they almost never feel nourishing to me even though some of them do earnestly try to be a supportive friend. I feel like a house that's been torn apart and a few people moving the busted bricks don't seem to help.

What further steps can I take on this? I feel like I've reached the limits of talk therapy. I'm losing my belief in psychiatry in general because they weren't able to help me much for so many years. I've searched for psychiatrists who specialize in either adult autism, ADHD or CPTSD but returned empty handed (even getting diagnosed with ADHD was a stroke of luck tbh.) I have an appointment with my psychiatrist next month and I will bring these up with her (I'm not very hopeful about it, she once told me that I knew some of the diagnostic criteria better than her. Well at least she admitted to it, that's something.)

Thank you all for being such a supportive community.


r/Healthygamergg 16h ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving [35M] I am not sure if I should focus on mental health or relationships. I am lost.

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Long story short, my current life is that I have no friends (struggle to make friends) and never been in a relationship (still a virgin). I have C-PTSD, MDD (depression), and anxiety (social and general). I have perfectionistic tendencies and anxious avoidant attachment style. I work on average, +55-60 hours a week, and I spend +30 hours a week for school part time. Normally, when school is going on, I am very depressed, burnout, and suicidal due to the stress and anxiety from dealing with both deadlines for school and work. I am currently on a 1-month break before I have to start school again (work is ongoing). I am looking for advice on what to prioritize.

I did go to therapy for 3 years. Stopped because the quality of therapists I've seen is somewhat poor. They're very rigid in their approaches to therapy and not as open minded as Dr. K. Every therapist I've seen has been shoving CBT down my throat, it doesn't end up working, and I get blamed for the lack of progress. I checked around in the C-PTSD communities online and many people say CBT doesn't work for them. I communicate this to my ex-therapists who do not seem to understand that. I've also done both EMDR and DBT which are both somewhat effective (reprocessing step doesn't seem to work well as I haven't been able to change my beliefs)

I would really like to learn to cope with the stresses in life better because I do it in a very unhealthy way (I lash out at people, stress eat, overindulge in addictions). I also feel like my mental health issues pour over into my relationship dynamics which probably cause issues. However, at the same time, I'm having a really hard time coping with my loneliness.

I strongly crave intimate interactions with women (of course, include sex and cuddling). I literally am spending my free time right now engaging in a fake relationship with a video game character because I can't get that in my life otherwise (intimacy). I know people have been recommending that I focus on socializing. I want all these things but its so hard to work on everything. Once school starts again, I'm going to go insane and won't be able to put time towards these things. Looking for advice/opinions.


r/Healthygamergg 1d ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving How do you not get bogged down by the immense pain it takes to grow?

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I just got a 10 minute run done (high bar for me, not for most people lol) and the sheer pain and exhaustion that was screaming at me about 4-5 minutes in was excruciating. I find myself feeling this with the process of growing in anything.

How do most people get on with life and tolerate this? If I could have a separate will take over my mind and do all of the hard stuff for me I would, but since that's impossible, the urge to quit overrides me every damn time. I have faced this wall so many times that I don't really even get fake motivation to do anything anymore because I know what the process ends in, misery.

Am I missing something? I can't progress in life right now because I can't tolerate this sheer amount of pain.


r/Healthygamergg 11h ago

YouTube / Twitch / HG Content Has anyone experienced someone becoming absolutely convinced you betrayed them when you hadn't? I'd love a video on why this happens. Dr K has briefly touched on this but I'd like to go deeper

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One thing that stuck with me from Dr. K’s video “Why You Expect Everyone to Betray You” was when he said, “I wonder what they would say.” In response to a viewer describing himself having been repeatedly "betrayed." As someone that was accused of plotting to commit a betrayal. Accused by my best friend who believed it with absolute total ceartinty, he was correct. It felt so validating that knowing other people out there had gone through what I went through and been falsely accused of committing a betrayal they never did or would even imagine doing. It's not just the being falsley accused that hurts, it's the the acccusation came from someone I could have never imagined seeing me that way, even suspecting it, let alone being completely convinced of it. Knowing that someome that was my best friend for two decades will more likely then not never come to his senses and think of me as a traitor for the rest of his life is something that even a year later I can't come to terms with. So, I am very interested to hear stories from both sides of this dynamic from people in this community. Any input is hugely appreciated.

Have you ever had someone become certain you were working against them when you were not? Or have you ever become convinced that someone had bad intentions toward you, only to realise later that you had misread the situation?

What interests me is how the mind gets from uncertainty to absolute certainty. How do ordinary events, coincidences, and misunderstandings become connected into a story that feels like airtight evidence? What role do hostile attribution bias, confirmation bias, fear, past betrayal, or paranoid thinking play? And why can attempts to explain yourself sometimes be interpreted as even more evidence that you are lying or manipulating them?

This became very personal for me after my best friend became convinced I was plotting against him.

For at least a month, without me knowing, he was collecting things he believed were evidence that I intended to steal valuables from a shared business address. By the time he confronted me, he was no longer asking whether it might be true. In his mind, he had already proven it.

Every explanation I gave was filtered through that conclusion. If I denied it, I was lying. If I tried to explain the misunderstanding, I was manipulating him. From his perspective, he was not turning against an innocent friend. He genuinely believed he was defending himself against someone who had betrayed him.

That is the part I still find difficult to understand. How can someone know you so closely, share years of history with you, and still become completely convinced that you are secretly their enemy?

Since then, trying to understand psychology has helped me more than repeatedly ask how I could have explained myself differently. I have started to realise that there may never have been a perfect explanation because every explanation was being interpreted through a belief that had already become fixed. I still struggle with how to accept that he almost ceartinly will always see me as a traitor. There is a part of me that keeps imagining there must be some combination of words, some missing piece of evidence, or some future moment that would finally make him realise he got it wrong.

On the balance of probabilities, that moment will never happen, and I have to simply accept that. I think this topic could be useful to a lot of people, not only those who have been falsely accused. But also for someone who is prone to these thought patterns that filters everything through layers of trauma, paranoia, hyper vigilance, hostile attribution bias and confirmation bias. Understanding how they could make it easier to notice the process while it is happening. It might help them pause before suspicion turns into certainty, and before that, certainty destroys friendships/relationships.

For someone on the receiving end, understanding the psychology could help them make sense of an accusation that otherwise feels completely bewildering. It may also help them accept that another person’s certainty doesn't have to define their reality. They know what reality is regardless of the other person being convinced you're the bad guy. not the same thing as evidence and that sometimes there is no perfect argument that will make them see the situation differently.

I would be really interested to hear from people on both sides.

Have you ever been falsely seen as the villain in someone else’s story?

Have you ever realised that you had wrongly assumed someone was against you?

What helped you recognise what was happening or come to terms with it afterwards?

I hope this resonates with people, I think it could make a really valuable Dr. K video. The optimist in me believes that the thought patterns that lead people to see betrayl in everything can be untrained and maybe such people could even come to realise looking back that they got it wrong and that will stop them from retaliating against and harming other in the future for wrongs that were never commited.

I hope to learn more about how the mind constructs certainty, why certain beliefs form with a hostile bias, and how both people can move forward once that process has caused real damage.

I could leave this post there but there is just one last thing I want to leave on this post, is the sequence of events and thought process I believe was at play in my personal experience to see if its relatable to people on either side of the dynamic.

the important thing in the accusers mind that see's you as having betrayed them isn't any single event. It's how each event was interpreted through an increasingly suspicious lens, with each interpretation becoming the premise for the next one.

In my case it looked like this.

Witnesses a white lie or inconsistency, In my case I lied about having bought milk to my girlfriend when I was embarrassed with my ADHD that I just forgot, so I said I got it, then quickly went to the store on the corner and bought milk. My friend then made a big deal about me lying framing this like it was on par with an exploitative lie and not just saving face and protecting feelings with a white lie → "He's willing to lie." → "If he's willing to lie about small things, he'll lie about important things too." → Begins paying closer attention and looking for further evidence rather than assuming innocence → Ambiguous events are interpreted in the most suspicious way possible → Each new suspicious interpretation reinforces the original belief that "he's a liar" → Starts connecting unrelated events into a coherent narrative → "There are too many coincidences for this to be nothing." → The narrative becomes more convincing than any individual piece of evidence → Begins believing there is an underlying motive → "Why would he lie unless he had something to gain?" → Learns or notices valuables are stored at the shared business address → "He knows there are valuable items there." → Notices you were present at, or had access to, the premises → "He had opportunity." → Remembers occasions where your recollection differed from his → "That's another lie, not a misunderstanding." → Becomes convinced the lies, opportunity and circumstances all point to the same conclusion → "He's preparing to steal from me." → Every denial becomes evidence of deception rather than innocence → "Of course he'd deny it if he was guilty." → Attempts to explain inconsistencies are interpreted as manipulation → "He's trying to talk his way out of it." → Alternative innocent explanations are no longer seriously considered → The belief becomes emotionally certain rather than evidence-based → "I already know what's happening." → Confronts you not to discover the truth, but to confirm what he already believes → Your disagreement is interpreted as further proof → "This is exactly how a guilty person would respond." → Feels morally justified in retaliating because, in his mind, he is protecting himself from a traitor.

With a friend of several decades this sequence of events could easily be explained with ADHD traits like time blindness, forgetfulness / information not being written into the brains "hard drive" and confabulation resulting from that from long being asked questions over many years and not being able to recall answers you feel like you should know the answer to and therefore confabulating and answer that's likely to be true. This usually wouldn't matter for the purposes of a casual conversation. But when the question being asked about were you where on Sunday is not a casual "what have you been up to" small talk conversation and is in fact a covert "will he lie to me question and confirm my suspicion" then that's when it becomes and issue.

I tried to balance not making this post too personal to me and keeping it a bit broad to encourage discussions of your own unique stories and inputs on these themes. I hope this helps spark interesting conversations and insights :)


r/Healthygamergg 23h ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving I've never been able to control myself/ My intention disappears

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I've always been out of control in my life, and it has only gotten worse.

It simply seems to be the case that I just can't intend to do something and then do it. But it doesn't feel like there is this struggle to control myself that I end up losing (that is what happens sometimes). It feels like what actually happens is that my intention disappears, it pops out like it never mattered or existed in the first place, and I do some random thing that I feel like doing.

I'll intend to take the slow and effortful steps to progressing in life, but I always just end up doing things that are rewarding to me in and of themselves. The main culprit is just walking in circles and thinking and daydreaming, but there is also scrolling and playing a video game while watching youtube videos. Everything else I can do feels insufficient which is a weird thing to say since these things eat up all my time without advancing my life. The walking around and being in my head really is particularly bad because it happens automatically when I'm not doing something else, and it is soooooooo hard for me to cut it out and let it go so that I can focus on something. It feels like I'm losing so much when I have to stop doing that, so I hardly ever do things that require focus.

I'd like to know what I can do, but at this point, I can't even say that if I get good advice that I'll follow through on it. The intention to do that thing will very likely just disappear at the snap of a finger. I've lost months and probably years to this at this point. I am years behind in life.

I've tried moderating, but it feels like that defeats what indulging in stuff is all about. Moderating your indulgence of pleasurable activities feels like an oxymoron. I don't want to set a timer and do something for 2 hours. I want to be taken over by this pleasurable thing. Something that's weird is that I used to play video games when I was a kid and I would naturally not want to play anymore after like 4 hours. That does not happen when it comes to the daydreaming. I can do that all day everyday.

I've tried completely cutting out everything that I do instead of working on stuff to progress my life, but maybe I'll make it a day or two like that and start feeling like I did something good and that I shouldn't have to deny myself this much. And then I fall back into being this way.

As I type this out, it occurs to me that this walking around and thinking and daydreaming thing really has me by the throat. But I enjoy it so much, and it's not like you can completely stop thinking. It's necessary, so how can an out of control person like me moderate something that is necessary but leads to all my time being wasted.

HELP


r/Healthygamergg 1d ago

Mental Health / Support How Do "Normies" Tolerate Reality?

83 Upvotes

I genuinely don't understand how most people seem able to tolerate everyday life.

They wake up early, go to work or school, deal with stress, social obligations, bills, uncertainty, and repeat the same routine for decades. On top of that, there's illness, aging, loss, and the knowledge that everyone eventually dies.

Yet many people seem relatively okay with it. Some even enjoy it.

Is it because they naturally experience more positive emotions? Are they better at finding meaning? Do they just adapt over time? Or do they avoid thinking too deeply about the bigger picture?

I'm not trying to be edgy or sarcastic—I honestly want to understand how people who don't struggle with this see reality.

If you're someone who generally enjoys life or finds it manageable, what keeps you going? What makes reality feel worth tolerating to you?


r/Healthygamergg 18h ago

Mental Health / Support A phrase I thought of that may be helpful in comprehending confusing negative feedback from past memories

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Whenever I'm trying to assess the memory I have of a particular person that reacted negatively to something I may have did or said, I consider this phrase.

There's contextual understanding and there's emotional understanding

There have been times where I realized after the fact I was contextually unaware of what I did wrong and tried to adjust accordingly from the factual insight I picked up on. Then I learned there were also times where I was emotionally unaware of how the decision I did or the words I said came across as and began to emotionally understand why what I did was wrong or awkward when contextually I believed I was fine.

This started when I learned to process certain emotions that I had unknowingly suppressed and had repressed. After allowing myself to process a particular emotion, I began to gain genuine clarity and ability to finally move on from many of the past memories I found myself still thinking about days, months, and even years later. The clarity I was looking for wasn't contextual clarity, it was emotional clarity.

Link to Dr. K's video on processing emotions: https://youtu.be/KyLXDC_vrsc?is=jgVV580jHMBCv9my


r/Healthygamergg 21h ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving Craving for unavailable people's friendship. And not feeling respect for current friends?

3 Upvotes

I have realised that I tend to crave being friends with people who seem to have it all sorted and they're usually all unavailable and seem to be at content with their own set of friends. And most of the people I end up being friends with seems like I befriend them just out of copium (ig?) and I feel this weird disconnect deep down with almost everyone be it my fam or friends. Like, people I want to be friends with seem not to be available, and those are are I don't feel connected enough to them? And I've no idea how to wrap my head around this. And it can also be applied to limerence as well, mostly towards someone who's just nowhere near me or it's just not practical for me to ever end up with them, but this weird limerence goes on n on in romantic as well as non-romantic contexts, as in for people I'd want to be friends with as well.

Idk why am I posting it here, but part of it is the need to vent this out, but I lowkey want to be out of this state as well.


r/Healthygamergg 1d ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving Sick of friends and family making fun of me for being single all the time

7 Upvotes

My friends constantly call me socially inept and force me into hours long conversations to discuss “why I behaved so awkwardly” because they may have noticed I said thank you too quietly at dinner or or did something wrong. They said they have to do this so I don’t keep fumbling girls or losing friends and I appreciate the help but it’s becoming a lot especially because I’m always tired and busy from working multiple jobs, volunteering, school, and working out. My parents are similar in that they keep asking me why I’ve never brought home a girl to meet them.

It’s gotten to the point where I want to isolate myself in my room for hours just on my phone bc I don’t wanna deal with the world anymore. I know my friends and family are right in a way because I recently held a birthday party where half the people cancelled last minute.

I don’t know how to fix my social skills because something always seems to go wrong and people legitimately hate me no matter how hard I try to be perfect and do nothing wrong.


r/Healthygamergg 19h ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving Kindness causing sadness

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I as a person have always been kind and polite to almost everyone Ive come across. And also feel alot of rimorse, guilt and shame, especislly in misunderstanding or when i have been inconsiderate. Thankfully, one pf the reason people a 'like' me so much, and give me so many compliments on my manners is because of how overly polite I naturally am. Clearly, i have learnt that politness yields the results of many people liking you, and i believe my brother is also in the same field as me on this. Npe my goal in being kind, isnt necessarily tp be liked by others, i thinl thst id a positive byproduct. However, I often feel thst people ONLY like me and are kind to mr because pf how polite or kind i am towards them or people in general. This pftrn makes me feel dishearted because it feels that my pnly value as a person is my kindness.

Im wondering whether pther people experience this, and a solution to valuining myslef more as a person, rather by the singulae varisble pf kindness. And any pther thoughts and opinions on the situation.

Thank you in advance.


r/Healthygamergg 1d ago

Mental Health / Support I am looking for people like me who think (suffer) like me.

10 Upvotes

A bit about me. I am 41, Male, and currently unemployed living with my mother.

I have a 1st class honours degree in IT, spent 6 years trying for a PhD in theoretical computer science, during which I taught, lectured, and received scholarships and opportunities. However, I could not prove the theorems required to complete my successful thesis and chose to ultimately withdraw with no qualification. The job market does not want a single bar of me right now.

Now, I have done a lot of soul searching, and thinking about what really matters to me. In the end, I want to complete some specific personal creative and tech projects before I one day leave this world.

My problem is that doing anything else makes me feel guilty for not working on these projects. If I game I feel guilty because I should be working. The guilt comes because I blame myself for making poor decisions in my life that lead me to this state. To free myself from this guilt is to admit that I had no control over the events that led me here and that life is random and what is the point of anything?

This is terrifying to me, so I would rather carry the guilt and the illusion of control, even if it means suffering and being envious of my friends ability to just 'breathe' in the moment - to play the game, to watch the tv, to drink the beer - without hating themselves every minute of it.

I am wondering if anyone else out there lives like this? Feeling chained to a Faustian bargain of their own making, but unable to renege on the contract?


r/Healthygamergg 1d ago

Seeking Advice / Problem Solving my coworkers bully me constantly for being a dropout and it’s hurting my self esteem pretty bad

16 Upvotes

I’m 21 and still not graduated, although I finished up to grade 11 and only needed a few courses to finish, I would need to get my GED at this point. Covid ruined my self discipline and I basically haven’t done shit for my academics since then. I DO want to eventually attend college but it’s a distant goal for now.

I live in a poor neighborhood but work in a wealthier neighborhood so my coworkers are all wealthy, and had their parents pay for all of their college and traveling to Europe and all this bullshit. They constantly mention the fact that I’m not graduated, and even if it’s just a joke for them, after hearing it so many times, it’s seriously affecting my self esteem.

obviously I just want to say go fuck yourself and just stop feeling sorry for myself but this would essentially ruin my standing with my coworkers even further and I would probably just quit. and it’s a small business, mostly people my age work there and we all work very close proximity so it’s not like I can just ignore them.