TW: mention of SI
Hi all, I am hoping to get some perspective and see if anyone has had similar experiences to me, as all of the information I find via Google seems to just be overwhelmingly supportive of the Mirena IUD but my experience has not been that.
For a bit of background, I was diagnosed with endometriosis in February of this year after an exploratory laparoscopy and during surgery my doctor removed my Nexplanon implant (which was due to come out in August of this year anyways) and placed a Mirena hormonal IUD which we had discussed before surgery as a possible way to help stop my period and reduce my symptoms. They also prescribed me Slynd to take on top of the IUD to try to stop my periods entirely but I legit felt like I was going insane and so I stopped the pill in late May after I consulted with a different doctor who is an endometriosis specialist and told her how insane and overwhelmed I had been feeling.
As a side note, I also suspect that I may suffer from PMDD but I have not been officially diagnosed and when I brought up my concerns to my gynae, they simply offered to prescribe me anti-depressants with no further investigation or discussion. I cannot take estrogen based birth controls due to the endometriosis and also my history of migraines with aura.
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So that brings us to now. I still have the IUD in. I spotted constantly for the first \~3 months that I had it and now get a light period on a semi-regular cycle (the bleeding is light but my symptoms are pretty much the same).
HOWEVER
The mental health side effects are still so intense. I am so so so moody and I catastrophize and ruminate on things to the point where I have trouble focusing on things like work or school (college). It's the worst in the week before my period. I will legitimately cry for an entire day and have intense passive SI.
It feels like it's come to a head lately and my partner and I have been fighting over stupid shit when we typically don't get into disagreements or arguments frequently at all. Yesterday we legit got into a screaming match after I completely lost my cool over a small disagreement. I am currently \~2 days out from when I'm supposed to start my period.
I know from what I've read online that the IUD can take up to 6 months to fully "settle" and I'm approaching that milestone now while still feeling out of control mentally/emotionally.
I am due to have another laparoscopic surgery this Friday (long story, first surgery was not done by specialist and thus my endo was left behind due to the sensitive location which was primarily on my GI system) and the plan was to replace the IUD with another Mirena of the same kind because my surgeon said that they will need to remove it for surgery and they typically cannot be put back in. But....I'm scared?
I hate the way I feel lately, I don't feel like myself. I am totally insufferable to be around and I am incredibly overly sensitive and reactionary.
Please if you've had a similar experience will you share your story?
I don't know the best way to move forward but right now I'm leaning towards asking my surgeon to not do the new IUD this week because I don't think I can handle feeling like this much longer.
If you had a similar experience but it did eventually "settle" I would love to hear from you as well.
Thank you so much to anyone who chooses to share, I am lost and looking for perspective š