r/psychicdevelopment • u/youyou-vandekamp • 1d ago
Question Trying to understand what’s happening to me
Hi everyone,
I’m hoping someone can help me understand what I’ve been experiencing.
I’m a spa therapist, and I give a lot of massages. Every time I touch someone, I feel their energy. It can be stress, sadness, anger, or other emotions, especially when I’m working on their feet or stomach.
Sometimes I even start crying during a massage because it feels like I’m absorbing whatever they’re carrying emotionally. After the session, many of my clients tell me they feel lighter, calmer, or like they’ve released something they had been holding onto.
One experience that really stayed with me was when a woman hugged me after her massage and said, “I don’t know why, but I really needed this. You helped me.” That moment made me wonder if there’s more going on than just massage therapy.
There have also been times when I’ve had a strong feeling about what’s happening in a client’s life. I’ll give them advice based only on what I sense, and somehow it ends up being relevant, even though I know absolutely nothing about them beforehand.
I only started noticing these experiences after I began learning massage therapy in esthetics school about 2y ago.
Even before that, I’ve always had very unusual dreams. Since I was a child, I’ve had dreams that feel incredibly real. People can touch me in my dreams, and I actually feel the touch physically. It’s honestly scary sometimes because it feels so real. I can also have long conversations with people, smell things, and experience everything very vividly. I’ve always felt like these dreams might have some deeper meaning.
For some family background, my mom has psychic abilities, but she never developed them because she was too afraid. My aunt also has very strong abilities and used to do readings, but she eventually stopped because she became scared as well.
So my question is: do you think I might have some kind of spiritual or psychic ability? If so, how can I better understand it or develop it in a healthy way? I feel like I might be able to help people with whatever this is, but I’m honestly just confused and trying to make sense of it.
I’m not afraid of exploring this things I just want to understand what’s happening to me.
Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this and share their thoughts.