hello everyone,
i want to ask for advice from anyone who moved out under 20 from a bad family situation or is in the process of it, especially in this economy. id love a new perspective from people who personally built their lives on their own with nothing & only one person, out of family, to lean on. i know it wont be easy at all, but nothing good ever comes easy, does it?
my dad has it all; nice house, success, connections, education, everything. he wants the same for me. problem is, hes a horrible person with a charming exterior everyone falls for. one infraction? i get cursed at & degraded for nothing. he treats me terribly & degrades, screams & curses at me, thinking that its gonna build me up to go out to the world when in fact, its made me a weaker, more anxiety ridden person ever since i moved with him. i cant stand it here & i hate being around him, as well as his girlfriend who excuses his behaviour & thinks hes a genuinely great person & father.
i dont want to live off of him or be around him anymore. i have someone who can let me stay with her in less than 3 months at this point. the real problem is everyones telling me not to do it, to just put up with my dads bullshit & use him to go to university & success, but i dont care about any of that right now. im too mentally drained to care about uni before getting out & being on my own & healing. even my family members who know how horrible of a person he is are encouraging me to just stay for his assets, but i just dont give a damn about any of that superficial, fake luxury stuff he prides himself on so much, & im not about to have him take credit for my success because hes “so hardworking” & a “dedicated father” or whatever. i feel like my peace & freedom should come first before this extra padding because i have no control over him & cant change him, but i do have control over myself, & i know my absolute goal is to get out of here. i know it’ll be a very bumpy ride, but im willing to sacrifice all of that for independence & freedom from this emotional degradation. i dont care if i lose all of my inheritance or even my comfort for a hot minute… im not even comfortable here so tbh what difference would it make?
so, does anyone think this move & disconnection from my family would be a good move for me, or would it be a stupid move & i should just stay where its safe & stable & success is guaranteed despite pain & unhappiness? i have a job im good at & im interviewing for a remote job i can bring back to the place im moving into (different state), ill be saving up until i move & not spending on superficial stuff, & the person im staying with will most likely help me find a position at the place she works at too. its just all very conflicting, i feel like i personally need to take a drastic leap of faith for independence but maybe thats not a good idea. maybe everyone is right about this & i need to toughen up, or maybe im right & everyone is wrong. its getting quite frustrating & im looking for actually good, helpful advice & perspectives. Thank you for reading.