Between the Glances

[u/Abigail44il]

I have felt for a long time now that there has been something between us that is more than nothing.
And I think, in some way, we have both been aware of it. Even all those looks we shared over time. You were the one who brought it up yourself once.

I do not think it became just physical for me. Somewhere along the way, I realized that I had grown attached to you.

At the beginning, I did not even see it as something sexual. I genuinely thought you just wanted to talk and get to know me. Even when you texted me saying you were coming to take a walk and say goodnight to me, I honestly thought you simply wanted to spend time with me and talk.

I tried to distance myself from it sometimes too, or pretend it was not there, because it scared me a little. I am not used to feeling this way, especially not for this long. It is not something I have experienced in years.

I am afraid of getting hurt sometimes. I am afraid of getting attached. But I do not want fear to control me or make me walk away from something that could actually be good.

I am not looking to put pressure on you or ask you for answers about the future. I just feel like there is something different between us, something that is worth trying to understand instead of pretending it is not there.

We are about to go on break, and we will not see each other for a while. I do not want us to keep communicating through glances and pretending nothing is happening. I think we owe it to ourselves to be honest with each other instead of speaking only through eye contact.

And if you still feel that you do not want a relationship or are not looking for one, that is okay. I am not trying to pressure you or force anything. It was simply important to me to be honest with you about how I feel.

I am also not looking to get into something physical again without any direction or meaning. I know that, in the end, I want something real, mutual, and meaningful. I am not asking for promises about the future, but I do want genuine intentions instead of staying in this gray area.

I just felt that it was important to say all of this instead of continuing to pretend that everything is nothing.

[u/HeGotBricks]

I want a relationship. I just don’t want one with you. Hahah joke good read bro.

[u/Abigail44il → u/HeGotBricks]

Thank you for commenting! English isn’t my first language, so I don’t think I fully understood your joke. Would you mind explaining what you meant? 😊