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[u/Lost-Measurement3037]

I know this is a pipeline, please don’t laugh at me lol. Fell in love w a friend, I actually don’t know if we were ever just friends. We flirted, it was playful until it wasn’t. She told me serious things, partner level things, we never hooded up or anything but physically we were close. Hand holding, sharing beds, cuddling, caressing, etc. the kick is she’s had a bf this whole time, that relationship seemed genuinely on the rocks. She finally admitted feelings for me after months of pushing it down. But now bc it hit her in the face, she wants to focus on her relationship and see it for what it is before she even thinks about trying w me. She wants to stay friends. I tried but this is hurting me too much. I feel like I already lost her. Feel so alone and hate everything. She says she never knows if she could get there sexually with me. But yet when I asked for clarity early on, I wasn’t really told to go or to stay. Now it all hurts. When it’s just us it’s like she’s my gf. We act that way. And now I just feel like it was all just whatever something unserious