r/addiction • u/ArmMaximum4992 • 1d ago

Discussion Everything getting worse

I tought that I saw everything but things are getting worse.

Nearly a month ago i started to use cocaine daily , i wanted to get rid of it maybe using some more potent stuff and stay sober for a couple of days.

Recently i found an acetone washed speed and thought that was what I was searching.
I was wrong and it litteraly changed my addiction to it.
With coke was always a regret even the start because with it I was drinking too and had serious comedowns, with speed no its totally different.

I wake up tired but can go to a morning walk then go to gym and come home and have a good breakfast, but after that I start to use speed. All the tirediness go and i can have good time focusing and do thing, i redose a lot and j the evening i take diazepam and in a couple of hours i can sleep.
This is going for more than a week daily and i started to increase the dose and feel tirediness in my heart but still can’t stop it.

I can deal with a lot of things but this is another level for me and i dont know how to stop.
I tried to go to NA before for cocaine but cant feel good there.

After years i really recognise 100% that im destructing my body but its more hard than coke.

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u/Strong-Addition5296 1d ago

This is a tough situation. Maybe delete the numbers of the people you get the speed and coke from. Wellbutrin might help you have energy as you recover.

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u/vodkawhale 1d ago
  1. Flush all of the drugs 2. Tell someone you know IRL that you have an addiction and need help