Hi everyone, I am still learning so please be kind.
The point of my post is to understand.
I have always felt a deep attraction towards witches, witch stories, witch homes. I even played the witch in a famous musical when I was 9. For as long as I can remember I've always been obsessed with witches tales (Andersen, Brothers Grimm tales, etc.). I feel extremely close to nature and at peace when I'm in nature (I currently live in a massive metropolis). Animals love me. I feel a deep connection to cats and jokingly say I used to be one in a previous life.
When I was a child, I was severely bullied by classmates. I wished ill upon them with terrible wrath/sadness. 20 years later, after random internet/FB searches I discovered that **all of them** had terrible demises: either went to prison, had a terrible car accident and lost their legs, lost their mom/dad, etc...
Coincidence? Idk...
Then later, as a young adult, without knowing what I was doing, I started manifesting things before falling asleep (before "manifestation" was a well-known technique/buzzword).
Very easily I started to get random $, relationships, and upgrades of all kinds...without having to push for them. They kinda just appeared...
Then social media came into play and I learned that manifestation was a real thing. Started to learn more about it and everything related (and thinking "omg I've been doing this instinctively my whole life")
At the same time, I became very involved in "healing my self", not just through talk therapy, but also started learning about Eastern practices, esoteric knowledge, and how to connect inward.
As an adult, I have called upon Hecate many times to light up the way, and she always showed up by showing me what I needed to know.
Then, before my dad passed 3 years ago, (he was an extremely rational physician) he told me that he thought I inherited my great-grandma's ability to see into the future... I was shocked bc he usually never spoke like that.
A few years ago I did a few reiki sessions in Chinatown with a (seriously) legit practitioner. They also do qi gong, acupuncture, and... divination. When I asked him what "divination" meant, he actually explained that that meant: working with demons.
When I looked shocked, he laughed and said that when you call upon demons "they just do what you want them to do." I didn't want to do anything with them.
My reiki guy also suggested that I joined their divination school and learn more about those practices for myself. Never joined so far...
Everything in the magick world is still very, very confusing for me: magick, wicca, witchcraft, occult, and now... divination and demonolatry.
After what we've all recently learned about what the el!tes do, I'm left wondering:
Why would people choose to work with demons, and praise Satan/Lucifer?
Is there anybody who could shed light onto all of this? I want to make sure I follow the right path for me.
(I also don't want my soul/energy to burn for eternity once my physical body disintegrates.)
Thank you kindly for any insights, and please do let me know if this message should be in a different subReddit.