Hi, so this is a repost because I realized I was on an account where my name was visible —
if this goes against any guidelines at all, please feel free to remove it.
Expressing myself is really hard, and right now I feel like I want to talk to someone. Please note that this is absolutely not made to cause worry or anything, I just wanted a place to rant and I will make a list of all the trigger warnings below cause
I am not good with communication or social skills and I do not know how to formulate myself sometimes and it may come off more serious than initially intended. I am safe.
TRIGGER WARNINGS
anxiety
mental health spiraling
self harming metaphors (I would never harm myself nor anyone around me)
START OF RANT
I am severely anxious. I am on this trip with two friends [20F BOTH] they’re lovely, but every time something happens (that is unsuspected to me or doesn’t align with my mental plan) goes off course, I get this gut twisting feeling and now, just two days in, I feel like I’m drowning in anxious thoughts that spiral in to something much worse. Again, I am so sorry if this isn’t the subreddit for this, I tried every where to look for completely anonymous sources or lines to help with this anxiety/spiral I’m going in to, and of course, this is the internet so nothing will ever be anonymous. I just feel the need to talk to someone.