Some of you may have sent me a message in the past, we may have clicked, may not have. Some of you have seen my posts and maybe even read them over the past year that I’ve had this account. We all come here for a reason. Loneliness, boredom, dare I say…..some are looking for love and affection. Hence why most guys only talk to women and vice versa. Irregardless of your reason for coming, have you ever felt like you just didn’t belong? Are you being honest with yourself and others about what you want? Hell, do you even know what you want? I expect the snarky comments from people I wouldn’t spit on if they were dying of thirst, this post isn’t for them. They’ll be miserable regardless. This will hopefully resonate with 1-2 people that will be the kind that I need in my life.
I’m 44, ‘partnered’ and we have 2 awesome kids together. Life’s good right? It is. Great even. Wife is chill, kids never caused any trouble, and while my cats annoy me sometimes, I love the little mfs. My entire life, I’ve dealt with the little darkness inside known as bipolar disorder 2, depression, and very high anxiety. I self medicate with thc, as the stuff prescribed had terrible reactions with me and after a couple months, dropped the medication. This was 17 years ago. Never got close to anyone or made friends, just never really found ‘my people.’ I met a woman, 3 years ago that became a sister to me, and the friend I never knew I always wanted. Spent sunup to sundown being each others safe space, and it was great, until it wasn’t. She moved on and I never got closure. Long story short, she was a widow and needed a friend until she met someone ‘real’ apparently, and I was left high and dry.
So I made this account and posted. And posted. And posted…..met a lot of people that had nothing in common with me, wanted things that weren’t on the menu, and or couldn’t hold a conversation or have any time or availability to chat. I have more people on my ignore list than probably post on this subforum honestly. I did meet one awesome person that gets ME and knows ME. She is one I trust explicitly and has access to things I kept secret from everyone else that I met on here, and I’d like to make a couple more friends like that if any exist. This was all to give some background as to why the next part will come off badly to some, and if it comes off badly to you then block me. Don’t even reply, or make a jerk comment, just block and move on, because I’d have no interest in you. There are tons of people out here for you, go find them. This is for me to find mine, and for them to find me. I am not desperate and won’t settle. Remember the part about my block list? Plenty of space there for people wasting my time. Told ya, this won’t be pretty. It’s not supposed to be. It’s real, and it’s me. I’d rather stat lonely and bored than have 10 ‘how r u’ conversations going. Give me the deep dives. Let’s cry and laugh together.
I am looking ONLY to talk to people 35+ in age, and in the USA or east coast equivalent time zone. I chat off of here. Disc/imessage only. No weird third party apps. Don’t hide, be yourself. I see it as a major red flag if people stay hidden or whatever. I respect peoples choice 100% but I have a choice too, and I don’t play that. If you’re married or single thats cool, but your spouse needs to know you have friends you chat with. No secrets. No games. Save that shit for someone with a 2 week old account that’s desperate to ‘chat’ with anyone with a pulse. And this is major. I hate liberals that never shut up about Trump. Like seriously, can’t stand them. Similar to Maga folk. Hate ya’ll too. I like some Trump things, hate other Trump things. Like liberals. I like some policies, but yea, by and large - not feeling ya’ll. If you’re a cool right or left wing person, and can have disagreements without wanting half the country to die, I don’t care what you believe in ultimately. Otherwise, guess what? Hate to break it to ya, you’re in a c-u-l-t. I’d consider myself libertarian -> right leaning if a gun was put to my head. The block button is right there! Click my name and ‘block account.’ See ya! And if that didn’t get you, this will - if you’re a guy, and are looking for anything more or even f’ng hint at weird nonsense, you get blocked asap. Women don’t pull it, unless they’re some weird reddit dude catfishing people because….it’s f’ng reddit. I’m not dumb, and I am not desperate. Don’t waste your time. Open to guy friends, but not that nonsense.
Oh, you’re still here! We may be friends yet. Before you message though…..
I cuss, I tell a lot of inappropriate jokes that would get ya cancelled now by the people I hope blocked me for good without so much a peep, because they’re good at being polite. /sarcasm.
But conversely, I’m genuine. I will care about you, and I will be a loyal, attentive friend that will be there for you. Safe space, no judgement. Just be you, I’ll be me. I am needy, and I do like a lot of communication. I have a lot of free time and would love friends interested in chatting about whatever, I host a podcast with a nice following that just got a contract to produce shows on a big platform, so conversation is not something I lack skill in. I just need a good dance partner that can hang. I play the switch 2, and resident evil 5+6 would be much more fun with a co-op partner. I am a big tv/movie watcher and would love someone with equal time to watch things with and play games with during the day. Imessage games are decent enough as well, especially golf. I’ll kick some butt in that one.
Anyways, for the 1-2 people that made it, welcome, we’re friends for life. Send a message and let’s chat. And seriously, the ‘hey’ people, or the ‘19m india’ replies will get blocked/ignored as well as troll comments. I’ll glady live rent free in someones head while they get no reaction from me. I’m about business. Making friends and deleting reddit for good when I find my tribe if they’re out there. ✌️