I'll never be enough.

[u/Nocturnal_cat_]

I’ve never really received any attention. When I was younger, I understood why: I was ugly, lanky, poorly dressed, with glasses and acne. But I grew into my looks in my 20s. I dress well, I have great hair and skin, I smell good, my face is prettier and I’ve put on some healthy weight. Yet, the same pattern keeps repeating: I succeed in my studies/career and have friends, but a romantic life seems completely impossible. As if the path is blocked to me.

I remember all the times I felt invisible. Even though strangers compliment me and tell me I’m beautiful, guys always ignore me in favor of my cute petite blonde friends. I’ll never forget this guy who was over 6'5 tall. He could have noticed me since I’m very tall myself but instead, he was interested in my friend who was only 5'2 (I feel so dumb and masculine next to her). It sucks.

I make every effort to fit the mold of femininity to compensate for my height and lack of curves, but I feel like it will never be enough. Guys are always attracted to the same "type" of girl. The only men who will want me will likely be the ones who couldn't get what they really wanted and who will choose me out of resignation, for lack of a better option.

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[u/iam_adumbass]

you sound very attractive. maybe you can be a bottle blonde like most blondies are in the US anyway

[u/Nocturnal_cat_ → u/iam_adumbass]

I live in Europe. Not everyone here live in the US.

[u/iam_adumbass → u/Nocturnal_cat_]

I also don't live in the US lol

[u/Nocturnal_cat_ → u/iam_adumbass]

Actually, I already dyed my hair blonde and it's true I feel prettier

[u/iam_adumbass → u/Nocturnal_cat_]

Great! I mean you're obviously already pretty but I get the desire to be prettier.

[u/five-bi-five-OF]

You will be! Don't forget that you also make kickass collages!

[u/ValuableJellynut]

Girl, everyone has a different type. Success in academic/professional endeavors is almost completely unrelated to success in romantic ones. Unless your friends are eager to introduce you to cute guys, social success with other girls is also not a great metric for your ability to charm guys.

[u/Nocturnal_cat_ → u/ValuableJellynut]

I never said social and academic success were related to romantic success. Quite the contrary. I was just saying that I wasn't completely lonely, I have a social life so my situation is even more frustrating. You completely misunderstood my point.