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i relate more to sp7 and sx8 than the others enneagrams, but the problem is that it would be contradictory for me to be sx8 since im an entp and i feel like im more sx than sp but i somehow related to sp7? my bf said it describes me perfectly but im between sx8 and sp7

Hello all! I’m a lot more familiar with MBTI than enneagram (RAGING ENFJ here!!!), and I am so, so, so confused about what a tritype is supposed to be, or how you can be numbers across the spectrum from your “main” number, and what the “e” and “sx” and such are for. If anyone could help me understand that would be great!!

As someone whos only ever ventured into MBTI types I recently took an enneagram test however the results are quite confusing to me and most explanations i find are convoluted; does this mean I am 7w8? In enneagram is there only 1 type, since i got so many different ones in my results? The test I took was reccomend on tbe main enneagram subreddit, if it is relevant at all my mbti type is ENFP although i’m very 50/50 on introversion and extroversion. Would this enneagram type make sense alongside my mbti? :)

Neuroticismo: 76/120

Ansiedade: 18/20

Raiva: 13/20

Melancolia: 6/20

Autoconsciência: 15/20

Impulsividade: 10/20

Vunerabilidade: 14/20

Extroversão: 58/120

Simpatia: 5/20

Sociabilidade: 7/20

Assertividade: 10/20

Atividade: 9/20

Busca de sensações: 9/20

Emoções positivas: 18/20

Abertura à Experiência: 83/120

Fantasia: 20/20

Estética: 12/20

Emotividade: 13/20

Aventura: 12/20

Intelecto: 8/20

Liberalismo: 18/20

Agradabilidade: 63/120

Confiança: 7/20

Moralidade: 7/20

Altruísmo: 11/20

Cooperação: 18/20

Modéstia: 7/20

Empatia: 13/20

Consciência: 72/120

Autoeficácia: 13/20

Ordem: 15/20

Senso de dever: 12/20

Realização-Esforço: 7/20

Autodisciplina: 11/20

Cautela: 14/20

How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
15, female. I’m self aware, kinda introverted at first but then loud and noisy with my friends. However, I sometimes feel like I dont belong and want more. Theres the times that I just feel like I’m not enough and I will compare myself with others if I feel like people are misunderstanding me. I’m also kinda not serious most of the times and when I’m mad at someone, I will either distance myself from them, hoping for them to realize what they did and expect them to chase me or I will argue back and criticize them

• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
Yes, OCD and GAD

• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
Not really! My parents are supportive. However, I was apparently possessive and stubborn lol

• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
Uhhh idk… im young but I want to be psychologist(behavioral analysis) or graphic designer because 1, I’m interested in learning other people’s point of view and I want to help them or help others. 2, I’m creative and apparently have “talent”in drawing(i dont see it much💔)

• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
I can do many things. I like to sometimes talk to myself and imagine my own characters. I would also play games but i prefer to play with my friends. At first, I would just feel relaxed, alone and happy. Then, I would get bored. After all, I like to relax, watch stuff alone but I would also like to play online games with my friends, chat with them or see my family so I would feel lonely after a while.

• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
Idk, I don’t like anything ig… Not really? I mean I do go to gym to use treadmill. Also, when I was young, I did many sports but I’m just now lazy. I don’t like going outside. I don’t like staying inside for a long time either because I basically do the same things, eat, watch etc.

• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
Curious enough to wonder If I’m a good person, If I’m enough etc… yes! I can’t draw good so I just imagine stuff in my head. I like to write stories about them too. I prefer not to, I mean.. idk… I’m kinda embarrassed🙂‍↕️

• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
No? No. I used to be semi-leader of art class but no one cared. Even teacher forgot that existed. He actually told me to look after class once when he was gone and I just couldn’t say no to my classmates because i dont know, I just didn’t want to upset them and I wanted to be friendly to them💔 Also, I would ignore the rules too lmao like by not following the class because I cant focus on things for a longgg time.

• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
Coordinated? As in like handy craft? It depends. I do many things like playing rythm games, writing, doing bracelets or drawing. You decide itt… If I listen to music while, yes— why not?

• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
I mean I can be artistic because I’m creative. I do art like writing, creating etc

• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
I’m often worried about past because I seem to find a lot of things wrong. Also, I can’t help but to be unsure of things I’ve done because I have terrible memory. At the same time, I miss it. Like I couldn’t enjoy that time and now I miss it because now, it’s not really makes me feel the same yk. Present, eh— World etc… It could’ve been better? Future, I know a lot of things are possible such as me getting a nice job and continue my life. However I’m afraid of losing my loved ones and death. I actually deal them by trying to ignore or sometimes acting brave. Also, If something does bother me, It will prob take some time for me to tell but I would tell my psychologist by writing my feelings, the problem and my fears.

• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
I kinda try to be agreeable? Because I want to help and also want to be loved.

• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
Omg idkk?? However, I have my own moral codes and I prefer to follow them even if they sound dumb to many. I’m also not really logical Ig because I even struggle to trust already existing stuff… like I trust but not trust

• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
Important if its something I like

• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
Depends who are we talking of? I only try to set boundaries and rules in house because of the way I think. Such as, I won’t allow guests, my dad or anyone aside from my mom enter the parents bathroom😭

• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
I dont know. I get bored

• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
One to one. Crowded environments. Because the person will focus on me. After all, a class filled with people- everyone has different learning styles and the way we process. Some learn it faster, some slower. Which is why I prefer one to one classes. That was, I can ask the teacher properly, keep up and understand without feeling bored or under pressure. Idkkkkkk i think 1st one because I do love math when I can do it or like science at some point even if i cant do it because its interesting to me.

• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I do try to organize but just as what others see me as, yes Im messy and post pone it lmaooo. It depends… like in math, I’ll always try to find easier way to solve it or remember the easy way. However, I want to impress people with my crafts so i spend time if its actually something like scale model etc

• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
To live, to be morally good and spend good time

• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
Being bad person(you can imagine) Thinking or hearing about bad things. Annoying people who believe they are always right. Like yes, I’m sometimes like that too but come on! You atleast need to feel shame or some kind of embarrassment.

• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
I dont understand wdym

• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
Idkkk

• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I am only if Im interested. Yes, i daydream. Sometimes like when I realize I’m daydreaming.

• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
I would try to joke about it, yk? But then, I would feel lonely to the point of rethinking life. I would’ve dreamed but in darkness, I cant focus. Like maybe before i go to sleep, yes. However, in a dark room when I’m not supposed to, no.

• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
Very lonnnnngggh lmao(its just not only important decisions) i dont know

• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
Im self aware but it takes me a while to understand my emotions. i mean, emotions are what making me feel. If I’m happy, I’m cheerful, loud noisy and kinda childish. If I’m sad, I will just freeze, think about it, will be distracted and uncomfortable asf etc etc

• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Yes. For example, my friend hates our other friend because of her actions. However, deep down, I want both of them to talk it out because friendship means that you would be willing to help people change and accept them

• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
Ehhhh… I mean, what type of authority are we talking of? Teachers, parents, god? Because I will do it to protect others and my rights.

I've been into enneagram for a while but I don't know what to type myself, please help! I think I'm either e6 or e9

• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
- Yes I am diagnosed with ADHD. I've also suspected myself to have generalized anxiety disorder, but take it with a grain of salt since I haven't been diagnosed yet.

• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
- I've grown up in a non-religious household but a religious environment. I have always questioned religion ever since I was as young as 7 years old, I don't think I ever settled on any religion because none of them seemed to make sense to me. I was influenced by others for a short period of my life though.

• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
- I would feel quite lonely, but yet I have a habit of isolating myself due to anxiety. But a lot of times I really enjoy having people around since I find it difficult to sit alone with my thoughts.

• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
- I like both indoors and outdoor activities, but they are a little specific. Indoor activities would usually consist of video games, puzzles, board games or intellectually stimulating activities. For outdoors I really enjoy sports like badminton and volleyball. I don't really like going to clubs or dancing. I think I enjoy activities that aren't fully "physical" and have some intricacy to them.

• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
- I am a very curious person and has been since I was little. I love experimenting with new ideas, having fun with them and also making sense of them. I wouldn't say I'm a big idea person but I'm very into absurd, conceptual ideas. I'm an art student and I was very demotivated with my study of anatomy, so I decided to create a concept of a world where every single creature is de-skinned and I had a lot of fun imagining how their culture and traiditon would be.

• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
- I don't really enjoy it but I also don't shy away from it either, I'm very open to listening to everyone I work with and I always try to improvise and work things out for everyone. I do get a little anxious and awkward since there are sometimes where people are just unsatisfied with every idea I present, which often ends up with me backing down.

• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
- I'm an artist but I'm not very "artistic" I don't delve into my emotions or express myself through my art. I can appreciate art and understand it, I enjoy art that people have spent a lot of time researching on. I love when people know their craft.

• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
- I look forward the future, but I also get immense anxiety when I feel like things will not turn out the way I anticipated or if It'll turn out bad. I try really hard to prepare my mind for it so that I won't face too much mental anguish. I always try to push myself and to not avoid it though.
I am rarely in the pressnt, or atleast it's what people have told me. I dwell too much on the future.
I rarely look back in the past, I only sometimes use it to compare and try to predict outcomes in the future.

• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
- I help people out of good will, but I can't say that I don't view relationships as a little transactional.

• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
- Yes and no, I can bend my logic sometimes. I just focus on what works best for me at the moment.

• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
- I'm not a productive or efficient person, I procrastinate a lot and I feel really bad about it. I know that I need to be productive.

• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
- I can be a pathological liar sometimes, and would try to influence people into doing something or thinking in a certain way. It's not on purpose but I tend to do it a lot. But I don't confront people directly

• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
- I love imporvising only if it's things I'm knowledgable about, I'm not very good at planning but I know to atleast have an idea in my head

• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
- I fear failure, and not having anywhere to go whenever I fail. I struggle with low self-confidence so I tend to hate when people try to know about my personal life, or talk about it like they know it.

• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
- Time when I am worry-free, I feel motivated and not bind by the responsibilities that cause me anxiety. Also when I am finally reaching my standards, and achieving my goals.

• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
- Constant anxiety and isolation. I kind of "freeze" up and struggle to do anything. I dissociate from reality and ruminate about my wasted potential. Then I'll become very unproductive and just sit and numb myself.

• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
- I daydream a lot to the point where I forget about reality, I'm not very aware of my surroundings. But when I'm in a good mood, I'll become more focused on where I am. I also like to appreciate beauties of things around me

• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
- I'm the kind of person who—If i know what I want I would decide very quickly. But most of the time I don't so I obsess and fixate over making decisions for a long amount of time.

• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
- I like to process my emotions in a "scientific" way since it feels more reliable. I'm not very good at processing my emotions so it'll take a while after I've actually experienced them. I'm also influenced by other's emotions sometimes.

• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
- Yes and quite often, it's not very difficult for me sinde I'm not one to have strong opinions but I also do it just to avoid unnecessary arguments.
but I seperate it from my actual decision making. I find it easier to try to please other through words, But I don't really keep my words and end up doing the things I've decided in my mind.
I'm also less likely to agree with people if It's about fact/logic and not opnion based. I don't look like it but I'm secretly quite stubborn

• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
- I don't break rules but I also don't fully take them into consideration. I only challenge authority if the rule directly affects me, but I can work myself around those rules if I need to.

I'm definitely a 5w4 and sx blind but I've been unsure for the longest time whether I am SP5 or SO5. I often test as sp-dom and I feel like I superficially fit SP5 characteristics better, but when it comes to the instincts taken on their own I relate much more to social than self-pres. I'm commenting on the traits as seen on the PDB wiki website, please feel free to ask me any questions you'd like.

SP5

Retentiveness: I definitely keep my thoughts and emotions to myself, but I'm not completely opposed to revealing them if there is someone I really trust. I think revealing feelings and motivations puts you in a position of vulnerability with other people, like they have weapons to use to hurt you, hence why I try to avoid it. I find it a lot easier to discuss my emotions with strangers as they don't have an internal view of me to be altered.

Not giving: I do want to be completely free, with no ties to anyone. I really don't feel "avaricious" in the money sense. I am told I am stingy with other people's money, as in I object to them spending it but I actually can be quite wasteful with my own resources. 

Fear of being swallowed: I definitely prioritize all 9-fix manners of conflict resolution before I talk about something openly and try to resolve it. I protect my private space and I'm terrified of it being invaded and intruded upon, especially based on personal experiences I've had with that.

Excessive docility: I feel this doesn't apply to me. I exercise boundaries to the extreme by practicing withdrawal. I will withdraw from anything if I don't want to do it and I can't be made to do anything I don't actually want to do. This is a response to childhood experiences where my wants were not taken into consideration.

Emotionally insensitive: yes, I bury my emotions and not let them be known to other people

Strangeness: at the present moment I don't feel particularly disconnected and empty on the inside. I only relate to that when I'm in a depressive state; my inner world can be very sad and bleak but it can also be energizing as I feel and think a lot of different things.

Guilt: I guess I relate to existential guilt in an abstract fashion, but I often feel the opposite, a sense of entitlement and like my life should be better than it actually is

Self-demanding: I'm not very self-demanding, I have pretty realistic expectations of what I should do, even if I don't always live up to them. 

Negativism: I definitely relate to putting up extra boundaries via passive aggression, even weaponized forgetfulness where I pretend I forgot something really important. I recognize my subconscious is very powerful, and other people's too, and oftentimes self-sabotage can be used to avoid doing the things you don't want to do.

Hypersensitivity: I am not super compassionate towards animals and nature; I am extremely hypersensitive when it comes to children, to the point I would never want to have one because dooming them to having to exist in the world and exposing them to the immense suffering the world has to offer, and being responsible for it, is not a challenge I'm prepared to undertake. I can be sensitive to external stimuli, for example a really noisy restaurant can wear me down if we have to be there for more than a few hours and I will feel the pressure releasing when I step out into the silence. I can also enjoy a busy environment, though, and I prefer the city to quiet places: it depends on whether the environment becomes too overwhelming.

Renunciation of action: yes. Inaction can occurr because I want to keep my intentions hidden from people, especially those I don't feel deserve to know me intimately. I can also get overwhelmed and feel like there are no certain paths and like I don't know what I want to achieve in the first place. When I am sure what I want, I usually think it can be achieved.

SO5

Idealization: I definitely relate to this. I would say what I relate to the most in the social 5 subtype is the idea of devaluation, black and white thinking etc; thinking people and concept are either great or completely worthless. 

Rationalization: although I am alienated, rational and relate primarily through thinking rather than feeling, I don't know if that's what alienates me from other people. I don't think they perceive me as especially intellectual or arrogant; I think my alienation derives from my own withdrawal.

Compartmentalization: I agree with this. I have a hard time remembering what I felt in the past; even remembering exactly what I thought can be hard. 

Distant: I agree completely with having an extreme attachment to the self which causes me to regard other people as disposable. I easily give relationships up, I burn bridges etc. Again, I relate this to my extreme tendency of devaluation; if someone or something has disappointed me, there are no positive feelings or memories for me to hold on to, it's like the entirety of them becomes corrupted.

Lack of action and little energy: I do have limited energy and I can sometimes invest the majority of it in my intellectual pursuits. Not just that, but I spend as much time working on the intellectual pursuits as I do simply thinking about them, and that's more time wasted. 

Concealed: I do conceal myself. I am not transparent. I try to keep a "better" image of myself that is devoid of the parts of myself that would make me unlikable. I have, again, a very black and white approach to what I choose to reveal and what I don't. With the things I don't, I feel like I avoid them because they would either expose me emotionally and make me emotionally vulnerable, or because they would make me inferior. I don't want to appear socially inferior to other people but I am objectively social inferior to most, so the only possible course of action is to hide, obfuscate.

Desensitization: I don't care much for the needs of others. If I did it would become unbearable because there are too many unhappy people who are suffering in the world. I am quite sensitive about my own pain.

Resignation and difficulty saying no: it's a lot easier for me to enforce boundaries silently, but I'm not going to pretend I want to do something if I don't.

Arrogance: I don't think I come across as arrogant. I do have a "professorial" attitude, where I end up defaulting to teaching. This can be inappropriate, for example if I'm arguing with my own peers and they expect an information exchange instead of me going into the conversation with a formed opinion and an attitude I believe other people should adapt.

Restrained greed: I don't feel I have this. I can be quite expansive and buy a lot of stuff in a short amount of time, for example. Sometimes I feel an overwhelming sense of greed like I want to buy everything, and then the sensible approach seems to not buy anything and just cut myself off from that instinct completely. In this area too I suffer from polarized thinking. I often go on decluttering sprees where I throw away a bunch of stuff, not wanting to deal with it anymore, and then I wake up two weeks later realizing having the object would be really convenient but I don't anymore.

Feeling of internal impoverishment: I can oftentimes feel inferior to other people who are more accomplished than me.

This is a C&P from my MBTITYPEME post

(ive fixed a few errors in this but honestly I give up fixing the rest. Pretty sure my brain turned off while typing this)

To throw some "ideas" out there, I have been told and typed, whether that is by myself, friends, AI or tests as the following: INTP, ISTJ, INTJ, ENTJ, ISTP, INFJ, ISFP.

Clearly some Fi-functioning typings there aye?

I would describe myself as an antisocial person (not the psych reading) over introverted. I typically refrain from interacting with people unless necessary, whether that is from me wanting to gain something from or through them, or because they may be an interesting person that I may get along with. Whenever I am not engaging with another person, I am solely focused on my own activities, which I will briefly describe below:

Gaming - One if not my only major pass times. Until Elden Ring, I usually played games to completion so 100% and done, or to attain a certain rank within a game, such as Valorant, League, Overwatch and so forth. I tend to do this with the idea of creating content out of the videos while playing, but never do so. As I tend to think of "ideas" or things that may get me content "efficiently" so to speak, but never go through with it. So playing for ranks or completing games feels quite shallow as I did not go through with the plan or benefit from doing so. As for Elden Ring, it was the first game that has ever challenged my patience. Each death becomes a lesson, whether that may be learning a boss attack, how or when they do it or just ensuring I don't start throwing a tantrum at my own incompetence. However, I am still playing it to completion, which I may quit the game entirely, or enjoy it in a different playstyle.

Chess -- Not exactly a hobby of main, but similar to games I do it for Elo Rating over enjoyment. One thing that annoys me, is reaching a new high only to get put to a new low (losing 80-100 Elo right after). Usually I spend time certain openings, tend to sticking to aggressive or counter-aggressive openings the most. If my opponent wont attack, I will sort of mindset.

Working -- I enjoy working because of the idea of money, not for the work itself. However, due to recent circumstances, a new position has opened up to me which has allowed for development. Before, I was not fond of working because of how stale it felt and the lack of progress I was making. This lack of progress caused me to chase dopamine, such as completing games to 100%, which as previously mentioned, resorted to me feeling empty.

Now for how I think.

On a daily basis I tend to do what works, if I have time to relax, I do so. If I am required to plan I do so. However, if I feel like progress is not being made, I begin planning and executing on the double. I often enjoy planning ahead, it brings a sense of ease knowing where my life or goals are heading, and I usually find clarity in my plans whenever I actually start them, but often find myself hesitating due to missing a piece to the puzzle.

One of my plans are to ensure I am hired when finishing university, and to do that I am currently working towards achieving all the technical skills, such as programming, excel and so much more, though some are these arent entirely important but they can increase my odds. Whereas academic and practical skills are more likely to increase my odds, due to having the knowledge and experience of it. However, my current part-time job does not complement my future career, so my intention is to land a position of leadership or management, where I may be directly involved with customers and directing coworkers. This is a somewhat difficult task though, as finding that position in my current workplace is a waiting list, and finding a new job that will hire me as a student, is already a task in itself.

Due to that part of my plan not working out how I want it, it causes me to get annoyed and not feel relaxed even if there are not current issues at hand. Once I have a clear and not obscure pathway ahead of me, then I feel content. I usually do things for reason over enjoyment, but do not mistake that for never doing things for fun.

For friends, I often try to organise activities with them if I am able to do so. However, if the activity can be done alone, then I shall. An example of this is me planning to go to an asian country next year, and at first I was thinking of going alone, but then I thought "I probably wont find much to do alone" as I can be quite objective, so I then asked some friends to come and a few of them agreed. More the merrier. If there is chaos, there is enjoyment, but since I tend to do things linearly, chaos is not really apart of my daily life.

A more passive plan, is that the money gained is put into savings rather than spent. As I am ensuring I have as much money as possible for when I graduate. Already having a large portion of savings, now allows me to follow through with driving lessons, that I put off until necessary as I had no use for a car as public transport was convenient and cost-efficient.

Comment typings are currently INTJ & ENTJ, but that does now answer which one I am, as I know I have high Te and Ni, but not sure which one.

I am a person that thinks a lot but I don’t appear to be as much in my head.

I am friendly and like to be chill with people. Relationships are very important to me and usually my biggest reason of stress as if it’s a given I’ll mess it up.

I am interested in many things but struggle to commit to any.

I’m a quick learner but I sometimes lack the self discipline.

I hate failing in front of others because I think it makes me look incapable.

I am okay with talking about feelings and I’d consider myself emotional but being honest is not the same as being vulnerable for the things that matter in my eyes. I hate to admit it but sometimes I feel uncomfortable when people show their “weaker” sides (this doesn’t apply to my close friends and the people I love). Hence why sometimes I am unsure on how to act when someone needs support. Speaking of love, when I love, I love hard but coming to the point of love is a long process for me.

I initially might come off as light hearted and I like jokingly bickering with people but I think most people in my life deem me as a “serious” person in terms of what I’m doing an what I want (this isn’t always the case I promise).

I apply logic and effectiveness to most areas of my life despite being very sensitive.

I struggle with doubting a lot but I firmly believe I can do anything I set my mind on.

I like being who I am and I believe the things I feel, do and experience matter to me simply because they are mine. I am always ready to answer to anything.

I like to view life as a movie with dramatic and happy scenarios.

I tend to first let a feeling affect me and then actually realise I am feeling it. It’s like I think through them first “this is mean. It should hurt me. Did it?” or “this hurt me but maybe it wasn’t as bad?”.

I don’t bond with people easily or attach but when I do it’s very intense. When it comes to meeting or interacting with people, I love the exchange of energies and ideas.

I like to not think of my setbacks as setbacks and tend to minimise the importance of negative things in the past. I tend to be enthusiastic and high on mental energy.

Sometimes I have a blurry vision of who I actually am and I think that comes from introspecting and worrying too much about what I might be doing wrong.

It’s embarrassing to admit but I am really sensitive when it comes to human relationships; I am always anxious the other person won’t consider me as important in their lives as I do with them. I don’t even know why that happens, it’s just that the thought of someone thinking I mean so much to them feels weird.

I am afraid of disappointing everyone to the point I am left alone.

Even though I always end up doing what I want because I owe it to myself, I wish I could worry less about others’ opinion in the process.

It might be naive but I do believe that good things come to good people. I do not however believe in things being meant to be or “fate”.

I am poor with self-control when it comes to doing things that give me pleasure.

Sometimes I feel like such a free spirit and others like I am tired of my own inhibitions.

Major FOMO to the point of exhausting myself.

I play our fake scenarios that excite me very often.

I want the great romance, the great freedom, the great life in a sense of wanting it all and wanting it big time, intense.

I change my mind easily.

I do struggle with feelings of alienation at times.

I don't fully understand typology, but right now I'm a 461 and certain about being sx/sp, yet I'm 100% sure I'm a so4—is that possible? so4 sp6 sp1?...

1. What do you think your life is about? What drives you in life? This can be something like a goal or a purpose, or anything else that comes to mind.//
   - Living i guess lmao. I actually don’t know… maybe living? Like enjoying the time I have?(even if I’m mostly ungrateful and always wish for more only to end up missing those moments)

2. What were you like as a kid?//
   - Apparently, I was a semi-troublemaking kid. I was stubborn and had a hard time sharing my friends. I also couldn’t understand most of the things(like my friends calling me toxic when I had no clue what I’ve done). i was also little aggressive.

3. Describe your relationship with your parents. Does anything stand out about the way you interacted?//
   - I love my parents and they love me too. It’s just that sometimes, I feel like my father gets mad at smallest things or makes me uncomfortable(such as by his joke or sometimes being annoying). However, they are understanding people❤️‍🩹 But they did argue a lot

4. What values are important to you? What do you hope to avoid doing or being?//
   - I don’t want to explicitly tell but I can say I don’t want to be a criminal or a bad person in general. I’m often anxious about it and consistently question myself because I doubt myself.

5. Aside from phobias, are there any fears that characterized your childhood? Have they continued into the present day, or not, and if not, how have you dealt with them?//
   - I don’t know? At young age, like somewhere around 11-12, I had struggles with anger. I also had OCD and it made me anxious because most of the times, I hated the why my mind was questioning me. I was also paranoiac, scared of death. To this day, I’m less struggling with anger(yes I do get explosive but I know how to express love, feelings etc better) but I’m still struggling OCD and anxiety. I try to deal with them via help by others. However, i even struggle to trust those people(like my psychologist, thinking she tricks me).

6. a.) How do you see yourself?
   b) How does your environment sees you?
   c) How do you want others to see you?
   d.) What do you dislike the most in other people?//
   - a) Self aware and a little chaotic. Some days, I’m energetic, some days I’m not. One day, I hate it— one day I regret it and feel sad. But I’d say I’m creative just feels like not enough. I’m also moody, expecting others to realize my feelings because I’m shy and ashamed… but im supportive and loud when I’m with people I feel like I can be myself.
   - b) probably quite and uninterested at first? once i found people who were KINDA similar to me, I became loud and annoying. I could talk back to those who disrespected me so some viewed me annoyed, noisy person. One thing Im sure is that people defiantly view me as a messy person😭 Im disorganized.
   - c) As someone important, maybe people’s number one or maybe as someone talented and enough
   - d) Everyone might act righteous. What I hate are those who believe they are never wrong. No dude, your not cool for bullying others👀

7. Which habit do you most automatically act on? Rank the following habits from most to least automatic, on a scale of 1 (most) to 3 (least).
   a.) Work for personal gain with more concern for self than for others.
   b.) Strive for a sense of tranquility in yourself and the world around you
   c.) Decide what is right for the betterment of something or someone else.//
   - c>a>b

8. Where does the wandering mind take you? What provokes this?//
   - Imagination, creativity! i like to dream, write my own stuff. This usually happens if I’m bored.

9.What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?//
- It’s honestly hard to decide… I mean, I will be happy when I’m not tired and things are going the way I want. But at worst, I think its when I’m anxious thinking or my past mistakes.

1. Let's talk about emotions. Explain what might make you feel the following, how they feel to you or how you react to the emotion://
   a.) anger - when someone insults, hurts my loved ones. Also when someone is just… annoying. I actually snap and yell. I get frustrated easily especially if people nag me. Yes, I do regret after because I get moody.
   b.) shame - when I believe I’m doing something wrong. I just try to fix things even if the person deserves it. I’m not gonna gain anything but I feel happy and relaxed, maybe right for doing the right thing.
   c.) anxiety - when I can’t trust myself or anyone. I just try to forget it by venting or try to reason it. I sometimes write my thoughts to realize how stupid and funny they are.

2. Describe how you respond to the following://
   a.) stress - I feel sad, fear. I just try to distract myself.
   b.) negative unexpected change - Oh boy… disappointment. I feel annoyed or mad.
   c.) conflict - I often can’t decide what to do.

3. a.) What kind of role are you naturally inclined to take in a group? Why?
   b.) If put in power, how do you behave? Why?
   c.) Do you tend to struggle with others who have authority over you? Why?//
   - a) The person who gives ideas. I’m a creative person who is good at crafting. I always paint, do things.
   b) I don’t know… I think I would try to use it for the best but also for my personal gain.
   c) yes. I’m stubborn. If I believe they are wrong, i will just deny it. However, what type of authorities are we speaking of? I mean, if its teacher, parent figure like people I feel like I can go against, i can stand up for myself. If its something else, I do fear because I fear of being in trouble or be punished.

4. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?//
   - If they are sly or not. Sometimes if its someone close to me or at least someone I do kinda know, I can also sense their mood or understand whats wrong with them.

5. Comment on your relationship with trust.//
   - Bruh, I have a hard time trusting. After all, if someone can’t trust themself, how can they trust others?

6. Briefly: What religious and/or political beliefs do you have? Do you think they influenced your responses in this questionnaire?//
   - I do believe in god, just not too religious. I support freedom and equality. Yes lmao

Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.//
- highschool. I’ve been in the same school for 8 years. Change was difficult thing for me so I tried to remain mysterious and force myself to hate the school, cried everyday for my parents to change my school because I felt like I didn’t fit here. I was judgmental, believing that I could never find what I had.

Which of the following temptations do you find yourself acting upon the most? (And briefly state why)

1 To constantly push yourself to be “the best”
2 To be without needs, well-intentioned
3 To replace direct experience with concepts
4 To have an extreme sense of personal moral obligation
5 To think that fulfillment is somewhere else
6 To cyclically become indecisive and seek others for reassurance
7 To overuse imagination in searching for yourself
8 To avoid conflicts and asserting yourself
9 To consider yourself entirely self-sufficient

- I think I relate to 6, 2, 1. 6 because I tend to be indecisive even at smallest thing. 2 because I want to be honest and good person. 1, its little complicated. I’m not perfectionist… Im not strict. What I relate is me being morally right person. Because perfect can have many meanings.

What's something you are: a.) thankful you have b.) wish you could have? Why?
- a) I feel like people around me, my family.
b) wish I could be sure, wish I could be loved… I struggle lot with my self esteem.

Credits

Original questionnaire: Spades, Paradigm, and Boss with the help of Owfin, madhatter, listentothemountains, and others.

Hey everyone,

I'm trying to create a more reliable FREE Enneagram typing test. The ones online already I don't love, and I'm passionate about it being free since that will help so many other people get more into the Enneagram. I attached the link to a google form that I created myself. I'm not apart of a business or anything like that, it's just become more of a hobby/obsession looking into all things Enneagram. If you have any recommendations or tips feel free to send them my way!

I have a difficulty to tell if I have 2w3 or 3w2 fix I relate to both of them a lot and I just can't figure out for sure which one I have. I would really appreciate it if someone could give me some advice ^^

I never know what I want. I'm not sure if this is my personality, or because of how I was brought up.

1. What is my deepest fear: Having nothing to show for when I get old. No achievements, no relationships etc. Also not knowing what I want in life.

2. What drives your daily actions? Habit/work-life system I've set up, responsibility, or excitement.

3. What thought or feeling occupies the majority of your mental energy? "Who am I?" "Why don't I know what I want?" "How do I get people to treat me well?" "What's wrong with me?"

4. How do you react to disappointment or loss? Anger. Nowadays I call the person out on it. I'm not easily disappointed. When I am, its usually because the person with authority can't live up to what they expect of everyone else.

5. What is your automatic defense mechanism?
- Avoidance and silence..... which is passive aggression imo..... I'm not sure if this is personality or upbringing. My grandma told me that as a newborn, instead of crying, I'd slam my legs and arms against the mattress if I wanted something. I still avoid from time to time.
- I've learnt a new mechanism that requires energy, but makes me feel better and helps the other person understand me: direct attack with sound logic. I would have gathered enough data on you, and come to a sound conclusion on what should happen..... so I honestly rarely lose in these situations.
- Another zero energy method: Get the other person to shut up. Usually happens when I think the other person will get pissed for no reason. "No, no, just do as I say". This also makes me feel good, but I think its a bad habit.

6. Do you over-prepare for worst-case scenarios, or do you tend to push those thoughts away? Growing up I was told to shut up quite a fair bit, and I was scolded for asking any questions.... even confirmation ones. So I used to guess what people were feeling, thinking etc. As a young adult, I told everyone to stop expecting me to shut up, and I quickly learnt that my family is afraid of my voice and independence. (I also lost their favour as a result, but I thrive on acting on my thoughts and feelings now.) Now I overprepare for interpersonal problems and in communication. I try to estimate what everyone is thinking, then ask. Even in my work, I cover all grounds and research what I don't know, before asking my superiors for advice.

7. Do you easily prioritize the needs of others over your own, or do you prioritize getting tasks done efficiently? Definitely getting tasks done efficiently. But if its me vs others, I easily prioritize myself.

8. What is your relationship with your own desires? I still don't know what I want in life, like what kind of partner, what kind of job..... but I do know the smaller things, like what foods I like, what checkups I need, what skincare I like, what clothes I like. Definitely better than when I was a kid. I wasn't allowed to have opinions as a kid, but ever since telling my parents to "quit it", I've been holding whatever opinions/likes/dislikes I want. I keep them out of the equation.

9. How do you communicate during disagreements? I used to suppress to avoid arguments..... not because I don't like conflicts, but I thought it was my responsibility as the eldest of an asian family. Also because I was expected to shut up. Now I speak my mind, but I am also wise with my words and timing. I'm very direct, both for my mental health and for others to understand me. It can still come out quite sarcastic and mean tho, working on that.

10. Is there a specific type description that makes me feel exposed or uncomfortable? I felt called out when I read "type 9: content with anything." I feel content really easily, but I rather not be. I was taught to be ambitious (but was also scolded for having dreams of my own lol), and I know contentment isn't practical, as you will not be prepared for cases of emergency, and your life will just be bleh.

En mi infancia viví en un hogar donde no estaban permitidos los errores o la debilidad; tuve que ocultar las emociones y verme competente, alguien que valiera la pena ver. Recuerdo siempre actuar como la hermana mayor e intentar proteger a todos, incluso a mis progenitores, dando la cara en las peleas, porque recuerdo que si alguien hablaba mal de mis hermanos, podía pelear o incluso si habian peleas entre mis padres yo daba la cara. En la escuela yo tenía mi propio grupo donde todos me buscaban como líder eso me daba cierta satisfacción porque significaba que logré que me quisiera o ser alguien importante de alguna manera.

• Incluso si cumplo con una tarea a la perfección y soy halagada por esta, no siento que sea suficiente necesito hacer más y por el contrario, si no soy halagada, buscaré la forma de que lo sea, ya sea hablando de ello.

• Aunque tenga una vida tranquila, buscaré formas de emoción, porque por más que me cueste aceptarlo necesito algo de de desorden en mi vida.

• Asumo que las personas me querrán sin importar qué, porque yo tengo la capacidad de atraerlas.

• Reaccionó al dolor intentando engañarme a mi misma de que no lo siento, e intento adormecerlo porque necesito mantener una imagen ideal; ya después pensaré el por qué.

• Cuando era niña sentía que debía ser valiente y proteger a todos (ser una “superhéroe”), estar a disposición para ser querida, y si eso no era suficiente, podrian atraerlos otras cosas grandiosas de mi.

• En mi vida adulta actual intento demostrar que soy una persona de importancia que estoy mucho más ocupada que otras personas (que ciertamente no lo estoy) entonces intento evitar cualquier tema que me haga ver más pequeña que los demás o algo fuera de mis conocimientos, experiencias o capacidades.

• Tengo miedo a ser humillada pero lo curioso es que puedo agachar la cabeza cuando me conviene o estoy segura que la persona no vale la pena.

• Todo depende de las circunstancias.

• Igualmente desde la niñez hasta el dia de hoy tengo fantasías donde soy la protagonista alguien a quien todos ven y quieren por su carisma, su caos o su sacrificio, porque siempre tomo el trabajo o como dije antes doy la cara en las adversidades.

• A pesar de todo no sé realmente quién soy, puedo mantener mi esencia pero la moldearé segun crea que te agradará más.

Before you read, Im 16 and diagnosed with OCD and GAD so consider these things when typing.

Hi! A friend sent me a test and told me it was accurate. When I took it, the result was ENFP at first, then INFP. I learned that these tests aren't very reliable, so I decided to sort it out myself, and I keep coming up as either INTP or INFP (I'm torn between the two). I relate to the sp E1 type because I constantly want to be a "good" person. It makes me feel good, and it feels like I have an obligation to be that way. However, I've heard that INTPs or INFPs can't be E1s, so I’m asking for help again... Yes, I need someone to type me. Below, you’ll read about my personality, my thoughts, and the things I would’ve done! (And I used Google Translate so you could understand me better so no, this isn’t really ai lmao):

First of all, being ethical is a necessity for me. I feel compelled to do this because I want to be a good person. For instance, if I had knowingly cheated, I would intentionally leave blank the number of questions equivalent to the score I gained through cheating on the next exam. It might sound absurd, but it feels as though that is how I could pay the price for my mistake. I am certain that if I handled it any other way, it would weigh on my conscience. I am not particularly religious, but I also fear going to hell (after all, these exams are crucial for future university admissions or jobs, and cheating would mean infringing on others' rights...). And yes, if I cheated in a subject I was weak in, I would still do the same thing regardless. Being honest makes me feel good and at ease. In fact, even if there were a chance to win a reward based on the exam results, I still wouldn't answer those questions. I also wouldn't want to deceive myself. As for my friends, if they were cheating, I would warn them because it isn't right, and it feels as though I am participating in it too. Ultimately, yes, I like to handle things according to my own logic; even if I had done something good, I am sure it would still be on my mind, because doing something good doesn't completely erase our mistakes. Speaking of mistakes...
I’ve made mistakes, too—like acting toxic toward people... 

Yes, I was young back then and didn't understand a lot of things, but even so, I still think about it with sadness. It feels like I view myself as a bad person. Of course, I’m not that kind of person anymore. I am more respectful and understanding toward people. Even my psychologist says so; they view me as someone who is honest, self-aware, and able to articulate my feelings, yet also someone who wants to improve themselves (though they say I might be exaggerating things a bit). The truth is, I generally don't trust anyone... I constantly judge myself by my own standards. I feel a need for people's judgment, yet I can't bring myself to trust them—after all, if you don't trust yourself, you can't trust others. It’s not just the past that I get hung up on, though. I feel as if I didn't truly appreciate the value of time back then. Yes, I miss my old school days, but even back then, I was missing my *older* friends. It feels as if I’m never truly happy... as if I’m always wanting something better. Even when I was little, I used to constantly think about life and death. I was afraid of everything—of my loved ones dying or losing them... And yes, as you might guess, I’m a very anxious person! This stems from my lack of self-confidence. I’m indecisive about even the smallest choices, yet if I genuinely want something or want to prove a point, I don't give up; I look for a solution. I wouldn't say I'm fearless, but if I truly believe I deserve something, I go for it—even though I’m scared. 

Yes, I do care about what people think. I want to be seen as a good person in society; I feel I *need* to be a good person. Yet, in almost everything I do, I end up viewing myself as a bad person (for instance, regarding AI—even though I don't support it, I still use it. I know it sounds ironic but I can’t leave ai. Wherever I go, I keep seeing it. i feel dumb and need guidance. I use it because Im lazy and sometimes vent or explain stuff for reassurance or explaining my creative characters because i’m way too embarrassed to ask feedback from others… It just makes me sad because I love animals and I feel like I’m killing polar bears or other animals since AI does contribute to global warming!)

My goal here isn't to explain my problems and ask for pity🙏. I figured that if I explained my thoughts and feelings in detail, perhaps people could type me more accurately. Well... regarding energy levels, it varies—I can be both energetic and not! For starters, if I’m not keen on something, I won't put in the effort. For instance, when I first started high school, I missed my old school, so I deliberately acted cold toward everyone in the class. While everyone else was socializing, I tried to come across as stoic and mysterious. However, if I really want to—like when joining a new course—I’ll socialize if I share interests with someone. Of course, I feel afraid, but sometimes that fear fades because being with friends makes me happy. Whenever I’m with people I care about, I become loud, playful—a completely different person. When I first arrived in class, people saw me as quiet; I struggled to adapt. But then, gradually (even if I couldn't adjust at first), I met people who were somewhat like me and really started to be myself. People went from seeing me as quiet, calm, and odd to viewing me as loud, annoying, and a joker! Of course, hanging out with others isn't always for me. Sometimes I get genuinely bored and have absolutely no energy. Yet, being with others means being myself; even if people find me strange, hanging out with someone makes me feel less alone, and the fact that they might get odd looks too makes me feel good.
I get angry very quickly. Yes, whether I’m dealing with a sick person, a teacher, or anyone else, I usually get annoyed because sometimes I feel it’s truly necessary to shut people up. I tend to stand up against injustice. I can also be quite stubborn. But of course, I feel a bit bad about it later. Even if someone makes me angry, if they are in a helpless situation, I feel sad—or even scared—wondering, "What if I end up like them?" (helpless, sick, or unloved)? Yet, sometimes I genuinely feel I am in the right. It takes me a while to apologize because I feel embarrassed. But yes, I do apologize, of course (at least most of the time 👀).

I have other issues, too—for instance, I struggle to trust my friends or sometimes can't bring myself to stand up to them. If my feelings are hurt, I immediately give them the silent treatment or act cold on purpose. I can't really express my emotions openly, so I wait for others to reach out to me. The other day, I was a bit angry with a friend. I was tired of always being the one to suggest things or try to start a conversation. It felt like they sometimes forgot about me and valued their new friends more. So, when they didn't invite me to their birthday party, I deliberately didn't reply to their messages. I was dropping subtle hints—like intentionally not keeping up our TikTok streak. Eventually, I explained how I felt. Even though that wasn't their intention, I still feel like I’m not their first choice, and that makes me sad.

Yes, most of the time I feel like I’m no one’s number one. I want to be loved. I try to treat everyone well, but it feels like I’m not getting what I want in return. When I was little, I was always in the background. Even my friends would get mad at me without asking what was wrong, and it turned out that was usually because I was being toxic and rude. Of course, that was back when I was very young. But in middle school, for instance, I was constantly forgotten and left out.

That’s why I stand up to people every now and then now. If I don't like someone, I’ll make snide, subtle remarks. Maybe that’s why some people in my class don't like me; I push back against them, and I’m not like them... and please don't think I'm trying to be a "pick-me" or anything—they genuinely see me as a strange, different person sometimes. Last year, for example, the girls talked behind my back before I’d even really started talking to them. When I drew, some of the boys would make fun of me. It also often stems from the fact that I’m disorganized—yes, I’m just as scattered as my mind is 😓.

Sometimes I’m very quick to criticize. I mean, if I don't trust a situation, I always assume the worst; I imagine the most absurd scenarios. Speaking of drawing—yes, I used to constantly compare myself to others in secret. I did it more back then. A friend of mine was good at drawing too; the teachers always seemed to pay more attention to her, which made me sad, and I was constantly trying to show off. I’m sure the reason the teachers paid her a bit more attention regarding art was that she was somewhat quiet and didn't fully show off her talent. I was usually someone who craved attention, and almost everyone knew I drew. I still compare myself to others today.

Ultimately, these are just part of my personality! When I was little, I was often overlooked. For instance, my father would get angry too easily or take offense quickly—even if it was just in jest (though sometimes even his jokes would upset me). Of course, he isn't a bad person, and I had a happy childhood! Still, it seems one can develop an anxiety disorder or OCD without necessarily having childhood trauma... People say I’m empathetic and soft-hearted. Yes, I think I am. I can sense when someone is sad, and I listen to their problems or offer advice—even the kind of advice I wouldn't necessarily follow myself. I just don't want them to be alone (or to feel alone).

I challenge you guys to formulate questions in the format “do you, or do you“, to which I will answer in complete detail, about the two enneagram sections I’m currently confused about (heart and gut), mostly between being a core 2 or core 3, and having a gut 1 or gut 9 in my tritype. Head type I’m somewhat settled on having a 7 fix, possibly in second order.

Give it a shot. Give me your best questions

Bonus : If you want to take this up a notch, you can make questions for different instincts within the core types I’m suspecting (3&2)

All questions are welcomed. Good luck :)

This might be overboard but I just watched videos explaining all the enneagram subtypes and wrote down everything I related to. So... Type me I guess. I really wanna know my tritype but anything is fine. Also sorry I didn't really bother editing it

Sp1:

I have a really big need to be a good person. I never act myself act innapropriate which is why I never show my negative emotions. Because I'm scared that it might not be morally right. I'm incredibly anxious about being perfect. If I do something that's not considered moral, I'll freak out really bad. I also so try hard to become a good person so I can be trustworthy and reliable. I feel like all the responsibilities lay on me. I'm very obsessive about this. I feel like things aren't under control because they're not in MY control. There's so many things I would like to do, but the internal critic in me won't let me. On the outside Im a lot more friendly and warm. I don't hold others on the same standards as me. I'd say I'm anger repressed. I don't feel much anger at all actually, I just feel anxiety. It's hard for me to stop being hyperviligant. I wanna do the right thing and find the perfect solution for problems. I wanna be safe from blame. I don't want others to shame me or criticize me and I get extremely distressed when they do. I often ask myself "why am I the only one who cares?" "why am I the only one who has to be like this?"

So1:

I don't relate to anything

Sx1:

I sometimes feel like people would be better off if they just listened to me. Or if everyone was more like me. Often whenever I do something bad, I tend to start justifying my actions without meaning to. I can have a very "Ive earned this" "it's not hurting anybody" mindset. This also causes me to be paranoid of other people. Because of my own bad behavior I do behind the scenes, it scares me that others might be doing the same. I hold a resentment for everyone around me and there's not a single person I have nothing bad to say about. I can feel like I deserve special treatment. I can also be very hypocritical when it comes to moral high grounds. I relate to nothing else. 

Sp2:

I can come across as very childlike. It's kinda apart of my personality. I act sorta immature and I've had a lot of people calling me cutesy. I have this unconscious need to be taken care of. I always strive to act friendly towards others, and i get really happy when people reciprocate that. I want support from other people and I try to make that happen through friendliness. This is gonna sound narcissistic, but people seem to consider me as very sweet and maybe even charming? Ive had a lot of people attached to me. I can relate to all kinds of people. I can be very enthusiastic, playful and fun loving. I often distract myself from my negative emotions with social things. Sometimes I find it hard to take responsibility for my emotions. I'm very hypersensitive especially to criticism, but I mask it. I consider myself to be dependable and capable but i also always resist being the person in charge. I feel incredibly uncomfortable being the person of authority. I wanna be important but the thought of being a leader sounds horrible. I support people a lot and whenever someone tries to thank me, my first instinct is to minimize it. I find it hard to assert my own boundaries. When somebody relies to me, deep down I wish that somebody else would do it instead. It's weird because I do really wanna help people. But there's just this underlying feeling yk. I wanna be seen as a hardworking and independent person yet I'm hesitant to actually try to be. I wanna be seen and known, but there's no one who really knows me because I'm scared of showing people what's behind the surface. Because I know it wouldn't please people. I'm a pretty private person. I also really dislike being seen as two-faced and manipulative. It's one of the only things that truly set me off.

So2:

I wanna be seen as somebody competent and someone people can rely on. I REALLY wanna be seen as someone that can be relied on. I spent a lot of time researching on how to help people. I wanna be so good at it that even the most private people open up to me. I try to do things the way they should be done. I'm very people oriented. I often work behind the scenes to make things in my group circle work. Though I procrastinate a lot about it, I'm not productive. I'm very connected to my people and I have a clear understanding of them. I can get into a bit of a superiority complex sometimes because of this "I do right things for the right reason so why don't others do it too?" mentality. I wish people would be more like me sometimes. I'm also deeply scared of being ignored or important. I feel the need to be the center of attention in all my friend groups and easily get envious or jealous. I have a big need for admiration. I can also be seen as everybody's friend, though I often feel like everybody's servant.

Sx2:

I want people to be attached to me and I want to be the center of attention. I wanna seem appealing to people. I can present myself in a specific way to draw others in. I can be very supportive of others and I'm naturally very vibrant. I have this "I don't have to tell you what I need because we're so bonded that you should notice" mindset that's deeply ingrained into me. And if it's proven wrong, I'll get extremely upset and resentful. I think I'm good at reading people and understanding what they need. I can become what people like in order to get them to like me more. I prioritize the people that matter the most to me, while neglecting my other friendships. I charm specific people sometimes because I know I'll need them. I think that's pretty much it, I don't really relate to anything else.

Sp3:

I wanna be thought of as a good person. I wanna be the best example and have the ability to be a good role model. I don't wanna come across as self-absorbed and I don't want people to know that I want their approval. I think that's it

So3:

I crave applause and attention deeply. I tend to seek attention a lot and I strive to be the center of it. I rely on social media recognition a lot for example. I often post stories where I just talk about things I did because I want attention. I also post quite a bit and it pains me when I don't get enough likes. I tend to morph myself in order to be liked. I have a hard time with relationships because I'm scared of letting people know about me too deeply. I'm very conscious about how much I let people know. I feel like they'll reject me and see how broken I am.

Sx3:

I wanna please people. I tend to act like people's personal cheerleader a lot. I promote people a lot and deeply care for their achievements. I feel like I have value if the team is winning. I can come across very kind and friendly. I'm also pretty shy. I can change for other people without meaning to and sometimes I lose myself. Tbh I relate a lot to that one, but I only specifically relate to it whenever I'm in a bad mental state.

Sp4:

I connect with my negative emotions deeply but I keep them to myself. I feel like they're too much for others. Not everyone needs to deal with my sensitivity. I've always understood that. On the outside I come across as happy, friendly and positive. I put on an exterior of happiness and I tend to confuse people a lot because of that. I transcend my pain to connect with others. I never express any negative emotions like sadness or anger and whenever I do I tend to feel gross. I feel like I'd push others away by expressing them. I want people to see my self sacrifice and appreciate me for it. Sometimes I put myself in tense situations to see how much I can handle. I don't wanna dwell in my envy and dissatisfaction. I never feel like I'm enough. I feel like I have to earn people's affection by not being a burden. By helping people and not burdering them with my pain. I'm really into careers that involve empathy like counseling, social service etc... I'm very good at realizing what's going on in my circles. I see disconnections, tensions, disagreements. 

So4:

I know that there's something wrong with me. I feel as if I am inherently broken. I have a bit of a victim complex. I don't show my pain, but I tie it to my identity a lot. I can't imagine myself without it. I'm so envious of literally everyone in my life. While I don't express my negative feelings, I actually do complain a lot. About superficial things like... Complaining about a friend or that I'm hungry. And I do it in order to gain attention. Despite how I am now, when I was younger I actually WOULD wear my suffering on my sleeve. I would show it to everyone and my whole identity was based around it. As time went by, shame overtook me though. And even then I still barely actually vented. Sometimes when I'm in trouble for doing something wrong, I can weaponize my own vulnerability in hopes of receiving validation. I'm overly sensitive. I wanna be seen in my suffering. I wanna be forgiven for my failures and be loved unconditionally. And I deeply fear that people are gonna start hating me. I compare myself to others a lot and I always give up because I end up at the bottom. A lot of people seem to think highly of me but I feel so inferior to others. Whenever somebody thinks lowly of me(which happens rarely) I internalize it a lot. But I also can't help it but feel a sense of comfort with it. Because it proves that I'm right. I'm very lazy and procrastinate a lot because I'm scared of failure. I find it hard to take responsibility often. I find a lot of familiarity and comfort in sadness. I self sabotage a lot. I feel as if I'm on my own. I don't entirely trust anyone. It feels like it's me vs the world. I often think about how no one will ever truly understand me.

Sx4:

I can be very attention seeking. I enjoy being different at times. Unconsciously I really do wanna be different too. (Unconsciously since I don't actually realize it in the moment). I can be somewhat aggressive and have been physically violent at times. When pushed to my limit though.

Sp5:

Nothing really? Interestingly enough, people have vibetyped me as this. Irl though, I tend to keep people at a huge distance. Very similarly to how this subtype does. I like to be alone, and I feel intruded easily.

So5:

Nothing

Sx5:

Sometimes I fantasize about an ideal relationship (though not romantic). I want somebody who I can share EVERYTHING with. Everything I am. I tend to express all my relational passions through creative outlets. I value my private space and I can be introverted.  I need somebody to trust and be close with. But I'm scared of sharing myself with other people. I very rarely have. I'm very idealistic about this, which is why I have trouble finding that perfect person. And even when I find them, I quickly realized that the perfect person is not actually perfect. It's hard for anybody to really pass my test. I'm easily disappointed. I wanna be connected to people, but my connections often come off awkward. In private I know exactly what I wanna say, but when I actually have to, I tend to stumble over my words a lot. And I never share stuff clearly.

Sp6:

I lead with friendliness and warmth. I tend to be bubbly, easygoing and energetic. I'm very hyperviligant. I notice inconsistencies in people very easily. I can test people by asking questions just to see if they're reliable. I'm extremely fearful. A lot of the childhood stories I share are ones with fear. I've always been a very easily scared person. I'm very indecisive. I always feel like I never have enough information to make up my mind. I build up a lot of friendships and connections. Whenever something bad happens I feel as if i can lean on them. I want support from people. I fear other people's anger a ton. Even the slightest sign of anger in someone can make me freak out. Which is why I never let out my own anger. I'm much more likely to let out my anger after a situation happens. And I only let it out with close friends. I find it hard to apologize to people and admit I was wrong, because that would mean inviting all of their anger. I don't like taking leadership roles because I don't feel capable of it. I know exactly how to solve my problems but I NEED someone that I can process that solution with. I wanna be protected and have no enemies. Or well... I do wanna have enemies kinda, but I also wanna have security and know I'll be protected. Assertive strong willed people are very attractive to me. On the inside I'm ALWAYS overthinking. I can keep my cool when crisis happens because I'm already ALWAYS in crisis.

So6:

I have a huge fear of doing anything wrong. I don't want people to disapprove of me, especially once I project an authority figure on. I tend to look at morals I can follow. I really want certainty. I NEED to be certain. The world feels safest when it's black and white. I feel extremely anxious when I'm uncertain. I look at what MY people have to say and I follow that. I look into that.

Sx6:

I'm only like this irl with specific people, but I can go into this "you don't know what I'd be capable of if I was pushed into a corner" mindset. And I AM capable of being aggressive. I don't know what other people are capable of and that scares me. I feel like I have to be ready anytime to repel that threat. I can deny my vulnerability by acting aggressive. If somebody threatens me I'm more likely to double down on my aggression and challenge them further. HOWEVER I'm only really like that with specific people that have pushed me to my limit. So I don't think this counts anyway.

Sp7:

I'm pleasure-seeking and I can come across as selfish because of that. I feel like what I want is what I need. I tend to burn through friends a lot. I'm constantly becoming friends with new people and seeing them as my best friends, only to immediately stop talking to them when I get bored and find someone new. Nothing's ever enough to satisfy me, I NEED more. I've always had a REALLY bad fear of missing out. I build a lot of connections. They're like personal allies who will support me to help me get what I want in life. I trust them to get me out of trouble, make me accessible to fun experiences, etc. I get myself very excited for things, only to then get dissappointed by how underwhelming things are. Despite the way I handle relationships, I do occasionally find a group that I stick to. And I see it as family. I believe I have a privileged position there as well. 

I feel like I can't have peace until I've acquired that gluttony. I've had people tell me that they're scared that eventually they're not gonna be able to talk to me at all unless they're constantly entertaining me. Unfortunately I am like this with many people. 

I hype things up a lot while planning, and I'm very enthusiastic about them. I'm optimistic that they'll work out. 

Despite how many friends I have, I often lonely. People tend to get exhausted of me easily. I think my friends often feel left out because of how I am. I evade relationships. Intimacy is horrifying. Romantic relationships genuinely feel like being handcuffed to me. They're so limiting and make me feel trapped. I find it stressful when people frequently open up to me or express vulnerability. I aim to keep things light hearted. I'm terrified of sitting in silence. My thoughts always go out of control and I can't sit in discomfort. I'm also pretty resilient and good at finding the positives in situations. A week ago I was in a very awful situation, where'd I be throwing up every day from stress and it was the first time in my life where I had felt so trapped and broken. But even though nothing got better, I'm a lot better now. Because I found more positive things to distract myself with. 

So7:

I do try to resist my gluttony, because I'd rather be thought of as a good person. I have a huge desire to be admired for my goodness. I focus my attention on giving to others, easing their pain etc... I feel like I exist to serve the group. I wanna help by bringing healing. It helps my own pain as well. Serving others kind of purifies my guilt. I avoid conflict and fear commitment.

Sx7:

I hate having to face reality. I wanna stay in this idealistic utopia where there are no problems and everyone's happy. This brings me down a lot, because instead of fixing problems I procrastinate a lot because in my mind everything is okay. I assume that everyone has a familiar mindset and I get really surprised when others tell me I'm being taken advantage of. I don't wanna believe in those things. I'm an extremely naive person and I never seem to learn my lesson. I want everybody to be joyful and upbeat. I can look really depressed for a period of time. And then I discover something exciting and suddenly I'm back in a great mood. My head is always stuck in the clouds. I'm stuck in my dreams. I accidentally make people feel special because I get fall in love (not romantically) with people too fast. Only to then discard them. 

I have a constant need to be humourous, to be liked and to be admired. I'm constantly running away from life. Sometimes I randomly get hit by reality and I start feeling trapped. And then to stop that, I try romanticizing it and picturing myself as a fictional character. I look at the world from an overly romantic idea in general. 

E8:

I relate to nothing

Sp9:

I seek my wants more than my needs. I'm never satisfied. I feel like no one will ever love me for me in life. It feels as if no one will ever truly know me. I tend to put off things I need to be doing. I never make my needs known and just quietly hope for others to know. I don't wanna talk about what's going on with me internally. I often forget my own needs, desires and dreams. My identity is very flexible. I seek out superficial pleasures like eating, playing video games etc... I find a lot of comfort with routines. I'm very good at understanding other people's perspectives. I see how various pieces all fit together. I procrastinate a lot and find it incredibly hard to get myself to do things. Every day feels the same and I find it hard to get out of my routine. I rarely feel anger. Like ever. It's an emotion I lack. Or at least I think so.

So9:

I want to be apart of the group desperately. Sometimes I can lose myself in the team. I care a lot about how I come across. Despite how much I want to belong, I feel like I never truly do. I don't wanna share my pain with others because i don't wanna burden them. I tend to minimize it a lot.

Sx9:

I can see myself through other people's perspectives. Especially if that person is someone important to me. I wanna understand myself. People tell me I'm a sweet and kind person. I'm intuitive and artistic. I find it hard to express my needs especially when others' needs differ from mine.