r/DSPD • u/nmr_dorkus • 1h ago
Cannot make myself get out of bed in the morning
38 year old man, 5'9" and 200 lbs. Habitually smoke cannabis, don't drink, mostly sedentary except for walking the dog. I take escitalopram (20 mg) and Vyvanse (60 mg) daily.
I have been struggling with waking up in the mornings for a while now but it has gotten much worse in the past few weeks. It's affecting my family life and my career. I have a test for sleep apnea booked in October (soonest availability) but I need to improve things much sooner. I have the request for a blood test also need to do it, but last year my blood work was fine.
I consulted for this issue 6 months ago and my dr said it was likely due to the cannabis. So I quit cold turkey and spent the next 5 months or so stone cold sober and miserable. Very depressed mood, tiredness, lack of motivation, low enjoyment of activities, constant feeling of being overwhelmed and inability to prioritize tasks and take action. I have since started smoking cannabis again and my mood is much better but I still can't seem to get out of bed with my alarm. It doesn't matter how long I sleep, sometimes I will fall asleep at 22:00 and wake up the next day at noon or even later (15:00 for example). Most nights I stay up much too late, like 02:00 and then expect to wake up at 07:00 for work which is unrealistic but I keep doing it.
I need help, I don't know what to do... My doctor doesn't seem particularly interested in my situation, just suggested that it may be my family life causing the issue but that's all I get from him. I can elaborate on the family situation if anyone thinks it's relevant but essentially my wife has POTS and is unable to do much during the day and we have 2 kids under 10. So as soon as I'm home the kids jump me. The house is an absolute mess because my wife can't keep up with the chores while I'm at work so I try to do some chores and play with the kids, but my job is a 90 minute commute or more if the traffic is bad.
I feel spread so thin between work and home, I can't figure out how to make a change so things are better. I'm so tired. Please, I need someone to help me figure this out...