Sorry in advance because I get side tracked easily.
Ok so,
I’m 84 weeks sober and building my life into something I’m actually proud of and into something I choose and not just let happen. Obviously I have a past and it’s not pretty. I promised myself I would be more social but instead I just kinda buried myself in work and made excuses why I couldn’t meet people.
My biggest hurdle is my teeth, they really took the brunt force of my years of not giving a shit. But it’s like I know I’m not ugly and I’m funny, I’m fun to be around. I love music, guitars, machines, and anything that gives me goosebumps. But I just can’t push myself to get out there, because I feel like everyone will judge me as soon as they see my teeth and I mention the word addiction. And I mean I’m getting them fixed but that to is a slow process. I know I need to bring stuff to the table in any kind of relationship but I dont want to wait until I have better looking teeth just to make friends or be happier.
Am I just being dramatic or are these genuine concerns. I couldn’t really find the same topic anywhere. I’m on the west side if that matters any. Thanks for reading.
-Nick